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A let down

Mar 22, 2016 5:45 PM

I feel like such a failure and a let down. I had a huge thing planed today for my band and I had to cancel due to being unwell. I woke with really sore legs and now I have a pounding migraine. I feel like such a let down and like people are fed up hearing I'm sick AGAIN. I don't know if I should leave my band and let the girls continue without me. I feel like I am dragging them down and it's not fair to them. Music is my life but I don't want the band to fail because of my illness.

Mar 23, 2016 10:55 AM

Awww...spirit, I understand how you're feeling. I love music too.
What do you play?
Can you talk with your band, and maybe see if you can have a plan for days when you can't make it.
It's very hard when pain gets in the way of passion, and art.

Mar 23, 2016 11:01 AM

SpritualGirl, you are in no way, shape or form a let down!! You did not expect, nor did you ask for this to happen to you. Unfortunately when we deal with chronic pain and illness, the unknown of our daily abilities is very difficult to navigate. If music is your life, don't leave your band, Sweetie, you're NOT dragging them down. Perhaps you can have some try-outs to find someone who can step in when you can't perform. This way the band still goes on and you get to rest without the guilt you're feeling for not being there. I am sending you positive vibes, gentle {{Hugs}} and prayers for a better day and relief from that migraine.💕🙏🏻🌻😊

Mar 23, 2016 7:41 PM

Thank u guys. I just hope I get through this down phase. There are so many worse things happening in this world and I should feel blessed I have my life but it is hard sometimes. I try my best for people but some just don't understand. Ferretbandit I am a singer I don't play an instrument. Would love to learn the guitar though to help with my song writing.

Mar 24, 2016 1:28 PM

SoiritualGirl, you sure will get through it.. We all do and then we fall into them again. All part of this journey we call life. Know that my hand is here for you to hold and I am here to listen. Try to take some deep breaths, think of something that makes you happy and make you smile. Try to listen to some music that lifts you up. It will get better. {{{Hugs}}} 💕🙏🏻🌻😊

Mar 24, 2016 8:12 PM

SpiritualGirl, your friends do not are you as a failure, and I'm sure they're worried about you. Is it possible to do recordings on good days, to use on bad days, or have a backup singer to fill in? I have no idea how the music world goes. Lol I hope you feel better very soon. Hugs & prayers you can sing again soon! 🙂💕🙏🌼

Mar 24, 2016 8:17 PM

FlappysLady it is an option I guess, alwayzinpain suggested this too but if I want the band to be successful the way I want it to be then I need it to be know for all the same members. I let them down for a photoshoot so I kind of had to be there as I have to be in the poster. They are great girls and very understanding but I just can't help but see how much I'm failing people. xx

Mar 24, 2016 8:49 PM

Sending you hugs & love! 🙂💕🙏🌼

Mar 24, 2016 9:30 PM

Oh Spirit , I'm very sorry that you are feeling this way . While I can't say I understand your feelings , I do understand what it feels like to always feel like an inconvenience , a failure , or someone people should just give up on. On days I hear this negative recording in my head, i know that it's my way of not believing in myself and I have to read my phone logs and forums on those days . I force it. I am not what I used to be . It hurts. But I can be something new. Adapt and your support network will too .

Mar 24, 2016 10:59 PM

Thank u SaraB I just feel like such a depressant. I don't want to be so unhappy but I have got so used to moaning I don't even realise I'm doing it.... Now I'm moaning about moaning!! xx

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