That is actually an understatement. Trying to stay positive, and focus on the present, but I am frustrated with myself. I am taking another day off of work for a while now. A good thing is I am not going to lose my job over it, since me and my husband are self employed, but it is becoming really hard to keep up on our finances when I can only work 1-2 days per week. I don't even have the energy to keep up on the little bit of paperwork... I enjoyed biking with some friends on Sunday, but I am in so much pain compared to even a month ago after hiking. I feel like I am in a downslide right now. It is hard to keep negative thoughts out of my head, like about losing our house etc. I think I need to consider a different line of work. I need to seriously pursue getting a diagnosis, or some help, because if not, I am afraid I won't be able to work at all soon. And that is scary. I have worked for my money since I was 10 years old, and I love to work, I live to help people with things. My hobbies are sports mainly. This is quite the adjustment. But at least now I am trying to get the rest I need to enjoy the rest of my life somewhat. I am still trying to open up to my family about how much pain I am in. They don't understand, but that is because I am too embarrassed to explain it to them.