Today I feel a tad angry and aggressive, I've woken up in a bit of a bad mood. I'm struggling to shake it off between the pain which is exceptionally bad again (possibly due to the weather being so cold) and my other halfs idiotic behaviour last night and his stupid questions this morning. Everything and everyone is driving me demented today, I'm really struggling to contain it. I was always a happy go lucky person but since my diagnosis I have found it harder and harder to find that person I used to be. So to be fair to everyone I am locking myself away for yet another day. Am the only one who has changed like this?
Hello darling 🤗... no i think we all are going thru the same... just at differing stadges.
Just breathe angel... just breathe... u r not alone ⚘
Im not gonna lie hunni... i have grieved 😰the life i once had... and the girl i once was...😰 and the life i should of had... 🐫
.🤗..it takes time to process... but in order to heal...😚 i had to let it all go... 🤗and embrace the life i now have ...and person i now am😚.
Believe me when i say 🤗everything changed but i dont dwell on that...🤗 i embrace the girl i am now... so i can be all that i can be...and more.😊
🤗Life is a learning curve😊 that is forever changing... 😚and so once u have gone thru the grieving process... u will learn whats really important🤗 about who u are... and ur path will follow.😚
U may isolate from ur world... as friends and loved ones learn to understand u... 😚and the transformation u embark on... but sweetie... we are all in that boat... and nobody has a bloody paddle... 😶just hold on to us... vent, rant, learn and understand.
🤗Just remember we are here for u... in ur darkest hour... to hold ur hand and walk ur path.😚
I appreciate that you have taken the time to reply to me 😊 Lulabel you've expressed how I feel so eloquently. 😊 Many of the things you have written have made me realise that I have a way to go yet on how to learn to live with chronic pain. I know I will never be the person I once was and I have yet to mourn her 😢. Thank you too Alwayzinpain for the support 😊
I'm beginning to realise that a lot of us have changed one way or another, through trying to manage the pain and trying to have a life. I must admit my other half isn't too bad but I think sometimes he would love to throttle me 😀. I'm glad your husband has learnt that most of the time you don't mean it xx