Run out of pain medication, again! Can't get ant until Monday so I have to go through the whole weekend on nothing. Tempted to buy from the internet but wouldn't know where to start and I've heard these orders take ages to arrive! How could I have been so stupid??? Brain fog led me to believe I had another strip in the medicine cupboard, just got up to take one and......box empty! I hate myself so much sometimes. I hate this crappy illness and feel so worthless. Goodness only knows why Jeremy want to marry me in September. I'm a ball of brain fog, dizziness, and can't even cook every night for my little family, which gives me so much joy, presenting a plate of delicious home cooked food. Teenage daughter who needs to eat well and I have no choice but to sit there and watch her eating pizza or pasta AGAIN! Jeremy came in from work late a few nights ago and had a cheese sandwich for his dinner! What kind of wife am I going to be? I still have my faith and that is one of the only things that keeps me going. I live 5 miles from Salisbury Cathedral and 2 miles from Stonehenge, so I should be grateful, but I'm not. Am I having a tantrum?? Yes, I think I am!