Hi everyone. I'm sorry but I'm feeling really down and fedup with myself. My head is spinning with loads of thoughts and some not to good. My partner don't understand why I am feeling like this, I should be used to this or that's what he think's. I've had a flare-up for 6 weeks now, hardly any sleep and to much pain to function. I can't cuddle up with my partner as my body thinks everything is a knife touching and lava for blood. My head is hurting and lights are hurting my eye's. I'm losing my hair again, so I got bald patches. I look like my doll I had when I was little, after cutting her hair myself at 5 years old. So not a good look. Is hats in fashion at the moment? Or make them come back in fashion?. I took some of your guy's info and suggestions. I too my other half to the DR's so he could learn and see I'm not making up the pain, thought he was fine as maye learn and understand me. He came back and said that exercise would help me, and what's for tea, start abit early so I can cut the veg and notask himas he's busy. The dr told him every thing as well. He explained about the Gilbert syndrome, the bipolar, and the fibromyalgia and rheumatic atheritis in my lower back. I was so hoping he learn something from it. Or as I said we could learn together. He knew I had these problems when we first got together, I told him I was bitch to live with and my moods go up and down. He was fine with it then. I have said if he can't cope then we will split up, I'm hope I'm not being selfish but I can't go on like this. I want to get a parrot or cocktail for company, I can't has cat or dog where I live and haven't got a garden for a rabbit. Animal's help me feel good about myself. But I got told I be selfish if I get one. What about him. I'm starting up my own business, two of them. I got to have something in my life. Sorry for moaning but I really haven't got any one to talk to. You can tell me to shutup. I don't mind, but thank you if you have read this.