I had a really bad pain day today. I started crying at a group-exercise-pilates-thingy because I was so frustrated that I pretty much can't do anything without excruciating pain in my joints.
After the class, I messaged my closest friends about it in hopes of sympathy and a venting partner. As replies, I got "you poor thing" ":((" "hang in there" "wow that sucks" etc. But immediately after that, they all started a conversation about lipsticks.. I know they're there for me if I need them but I also know that since they don't know what chronic pain feels like emotionally and physically, they don't really know what to say to make me feel better :/
Since I got my diagnosis just a month ago, I'm still really bitter from time to time. I'm bitter that I can't just send a sad message and then forget about it and think of something else, I can't just move on. The emotional and the physical pain lingers. I'm trying to do better at not being bitter but as you all know, there's good and bad days :(