I have a chronic disease called Neuromyelitis Optica. It effects are similar symptoms to multiple sclerosis. Been on steroids year and a half as my other immunosuppressent was too low but we upped it and I became anemic.
Steroids have ruined me and I've needed up in a wheelchair suffering with chronic pain and fatigue from them.
I went to the wedding on the weekend and honestly it killed me I was there the full day. I usually spend 90% of the week in bed so this was a lot in one day. Most people I come in to contact with onnthe average day is around 4.... It has exhausted me and I'm getting a huge everything flare up now.
I took morphine we had left over from a old prescription and it's doing nothing just like all the other times. I'm so desperate for some relief we have really tried most things. I'm suspecting that I could have possible fibromyalgia or complex regional pain for many reasons but I just want relief so bad. Even if I just get knocked out by meds it's good enough for this painsomiac. How the fuck am I supposed to deal with school next week for the first time in over a year. It's a brand new school too so have anxiety about that. I really just don't know what to do with myself. All panicked.