It started as normal ..pain weak stiff ect. Mom started with me in the bathroom ..she love to have conversation first thing in the morning. So anyway , went on we had several errrand today so we left drove to the next state over a hour so during the drive she say so have a nasty attitude .. Of course she gets to say it is a joke I found it not at all funny. Basically told her to take my body for five hours and after an hour we talk about my attitude. Yeah. Tense trip..so anyway went on and I took the chance to get stuff out since she was nkt interested in being kind this morning. Basically told her I'm emotionally tired and that she need to stop making mountains out of mole hills. She actually is upset that she is not as I'll as my dad and I. I understand she is tired she wants some attention on her she wants to be able to spend money a d do the things she was before.
However I impresses on her they trying to control things is usleess I've learned that with this tyoe of life of sickness fighting against the flow is only gonna cause more issues. My mom is and has always been stubborn.. She is also a worrier I am also but I try to nkt let things get to me. For me it is actually medically necessary to not worry I have to keep emotions at a level keel.
On the way back I drove and we continues to speak she continued to tell me what she thought I should do. And I did my best to keep it respectful after all she is my mom but I'm having to live my and act like the 37 yr old woman I am... She has to see and respond to me as an adult. That is a hard thing to cross into. I don't know if it will work. So we get home three hours later and I say I'm gonna lay down since I was seeing double from the drive and nkt eating. She says u need to stay out the bed.. And u know she may be right but she is so negative that I feel staying in my room is the only way to ensure we don't get into argument.
Ha...so sorry this is probably a long nonsense post. With all that was said a d done today I still feel maybe something is starting to stick with her. I really need things to change here..I really need more emotional support. I am truly just so physically exhausted