In the last four years, I went from being unbelievably active, to having to be in a wheelchair or using a cane at all times, making it rare that I can even make it out of the house most days. In the last year, things have gotten so bad, pain and strength wise, and as a result Ive lost most of my life, causing my life long depression to become so active. My question for all of my fellow chronically ill people is, how do you cope with the depression that often comes with limiting disabilities? I've struggled with depression and suicidal tenancies, honestly as far back as I can remember, but with all these new-ish struggles with my health, I've found my old coping skills are no longer effective.
I've had something similar happen to me. I went from being in the military and super active to now after 3 years in bedridden and must use a cane to get around. O found some new coping methods like painting, coloring, playing video games more. I use my oil diffuser all day and night which helps a lot! Some friends will come by for a couple hours but it takes all my energy out of me, although I know it's healthy to be more social. I watch Netflix a lot like Greys Anayomy and scary movies :) I had to grieve my old life because I know now I'll probably never be as healthy as I was before ever again and I'm only 21. I hope you can find some new methods to keep your mind busy! Maybe try crossword puzzles or sudoku! My mind is too foggy to read or finish a puzzle but I'll still do puzzles with my step mom :)
Well my suicidal tendencies are pretty consistent, but I can mainly stop myself from acting on them. My biggest concern is that they will become so bad that I will not be able to control them. I live with my partner but he is also disabled and I am is caregiver so I can't really talk to him about my struggles. I don't really have any friends so I basically have to cope/manage my mental and physical health on my own. I've tried to see therapist, but I have literally been told I have "too many health problems for them to address" so I haven't been able to receive help. I'm afraid that soon my depression will become too active for me to stop the thoughts and actions that come with it. I've tried lots of things to try to cope, but I'm running out of ideas, so I'm trying to ask anyone who struggles with depression and chronic illness what they do to cope with depression and suicidal tendencies.
Chronicallyskill, I can relate because I was in the prime of my life & career in 2010. I went out on FMLA for surgery and from one problem to another I'm like an old person in body & mind. I struggle mentally to do basic math and complete sentences, walk with a cane or walker, use electric carts, and will never regain what I've lost to return to my older happier self & life. It took me 4+ years to accept where I was then/now, and in the past 2 years I've worked on accepting my new normal life. I think having a good team of doctors who work together is very important. I have both a psychologist and psychiatrist, among PCP, pain specialist, and others. If you don't have a psychologist to talk with, it really helps. I'm sending you hugs & prayers you will find the support you need to work through your grief of losing your old life, through ways to cope and manage through your new normal life. 🙂💕🙏🌼