I have been Diagnosed with Adhesive Arachnoiditis , Sciatica L , Fibrosis L Hips . DDD L5-S1 , Accutane Manic Depression 6 years and counting . I am new to this whole site support and suggestions so please be gentle Hahaha .
As my time passes reminders of an prison sentence everything that made me , me has long gone only allowed to do what my body now allows me to . There are days at an time as I watch the sun rise and then set ever so slowly , many nights I with the moon dance across the dark twinkling sky just to watch the process all over again .
As I hear very really seeing my children throughout the house , "with an deep sigh" all the little things that I have missed . Wow two are grown , three are driven/getting ready to for 2 where has the time gone . Why did this happen to me in my peak in my prime just as things were finally going right . Life is short no matter how many times I look back I can now do nothing to bring it back nor change the outcome of the accuracy of what has happened . I miss playing , working , being an father , husband , son , uncle and brother ; I miss the man I once was , the man everyone loved .