I just found out that I need two surgeries. I have always been terrified about anesthesia. I don't like the idea of going under. The first surgery they want to do is replace my shoulder joint. Mine is destroyed. It is bone on bone. I am holding out as long as I can but the mobility in it is limited very much and the pain is very bad. Plus I get these very bad sores in the arm that hurt very bad. I have to figure them out before I have surgery on the arm. I don't want to get an infection if the arm is ill. Then, they want to fuse my ankle some more. They have already done most of it. But the arthritis is so bad, they feel they need to correct the problem because there are days I cannot walk. but I am terrified to have these done. Then they want to put me to sleep for a colonoscopy. I am not worried about that. At least they just use Versed for that. I don't mind that. I am going to see if they can numb my leg and do that for my foot. They did that for my other surgeries on my foot.