My depressions outta hand I hate it, I been off my med going on two months now another week to live with nothing, today just bad.... I was soooo tired today I slept on off til 12 .. I'd wake up wander around potty lay down zzzzz wake up kept doing this.. At 12 I realized Tree was gone so that made me more upset, I layer here I just started crying... One those idk why I gave no purpose too but can't stop either... Tree messaged me if I wanted subway NO NO I DONT... When he walked in said hello aren't u hungry I said yea but I had subway last night, I'm a picky eater not much at subway entises me if I'm have a sub it be from PUBLIX where everything's fresh u pay about same price... At this point he says what about mcds I now know he's just trying to get me to eat so I cave for him now I am laying here again just crying WTF :/ .... I hate myself some times if I don't understand how can anybody else????