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Feb 11, 2016 4:32 PM

Just realized how fucking naive I really am. Got my denial letter from my long term disability with the reasons listed and they pulled some shit out of their asses. Lied flat out citing statements from doctors I've never seen and drew completely inaccurate conclusions. Apparently I can walk for 20 minute intervals for up to two hours, no restrictions on sitting. Also, according to their "doctors", I can climb stairs stoop crawl and finger (which sounds dirty, but masturbating puts my hands to sleep so that's not true) and said that (AFTER quoting my shrink on my social anxiety, agoraphobia and major depression) I didn't have any debilitating psychiatric problems. What. The. Actual. FUCK??!? Do they HAVE a conscience? Because they obviously don't give a shit about my life compared to their money. Sending all of this to my lawyer with a request for an assessment of my abilities by a doctor or doctors of their choosing with a witness. I'm in shock and I'm pissed off and hurt and just outraged!!! Panic attack, rage attack and despair and wondering if any fucking body can be trusted or if everyone is only out to line their own pockets.

Rant over, sorry for the language. I just feel ganged up on by people I wouldn't even begin to know how to fight.

Feb 11, 2016 8:00 PM

Can you get s.lawyer for that to who works and only gets paid if he wins. Just curious

Feb 11, 2016 8:42 PM

So sorry! That sounds terrible!!!! I've heard from others that almost all initial requests are denied. They want to force to appeal- asinine!! Disabled people NEED help, not hassle!! I really hope things go better with your appeal!!!!

Feb 11, 2016 10:27 PM

My lawyer is filing the second appeal. I just hope that she can fix this

Feb 11, 2016 10:34 PM

If they can't help me, I quit. I'm done. I'll just pack my shit and move where pot is legal and Chris can get a better job and live off whatever we can scrape up. I hate this corporate "fuck the weak and injured" bullshit, I'm sick of being victimized by the same ppl who are supposed to be helping me. I think it's designed to make us quit and give up on everything. So tired of fighting everyone. Would be such a relief to not have to fight anything anymore

Feb 11, 2016 10:50 PM

Crazy phoenix dont give up up usually after 3 times they give up and you win you deserve it dont let them bully you!

Feb 11, 2016 11:19 PM

They are trying to get you to give up. Have your lawyer request a hearing in front of our judge and let the judge so he can see you in person and you will win. Good luck

Feb 11, 2016 11:26 PM

Ohhhh cearea i was worried for you im happy to see you!

Feb 11, 2016 11:30 PM

It's long term disability not the SSDI.... That's another ball of wax with explosives embedded in it

Feb 11, 2016 11:31 PM

Sorry. Have been and am still extremely sick. Can't get rid of pneumonia. They have tried at least 4 antibiotics but it still isn't getting rid of it. Been in and out of the hospital

Feb 11, 2016 11:31 PM

Stilll??? You poor thing you must be so exhausted!!

Feb 11, 2016 11:32 PM

I got long term disability but it took 4 yrs

Feb 11, 2016 11:33 PM

I am. That's why I haven't been on. Going to bed again now

Feb 11, 2016 11:40 PM

I hate that they look at how young you are, hell I'm 43, but if I were only 12 years older, I'd have gotten my SSDI with little problem. What, because I'll be more believable in 12 years?!?! I'm hurting and sick and scared and still trying to accept my new forever and they have to kick me while I'm down here and make me feel like I have to justify and prove my pain!! I'm not a liar or a faker, I'd give just about anything to not hurt and go back to work!!! Why would anyone WANT THIS CRAP?!?! Who could fake it and why try? So they can be criticized and treated like a criminal and a liar simply because they're sick?? Sounds like a shit way to get a laugh. I'm sorry. I know you guys all have the same problems. When do we say no? When do we take back control and tell them to stop criminalizing the victims!!! I actually thought about driving my car into a tree or off a bridge to prove to the idiots that I'm incompetent and hey, bonus, if I live, I'll probably have a visible illness now....

.... no I wouldn't do it. It's just tired thinking. So tired tired tired of hurting and being invisible and not mattering.. Also weaning off duloxetine. Probably not helping....

Feb 12, 2016 6:46 AM

Phoenix, my heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry for what you are going through. You're right, it's like being bullied and beat up and made to feel like you don't matter and you're faking, etc.. I understand why you're so enraged and upset, you've every right to be. (I want to apologize again for my big mouth spouting off before I knew what was happening and was making jokes.. I still feel badly about that). I know that you know I was just trying to help. I wish I could make it better and please don't let those horrible thoughts of running off a bridge or into a tree get into your head any more. I'm here for you and you can call me whenever you need me... {{{{Hugs}}}} 💕

Feb 12, 2016 7:50 AM

This process sickens me as well! I am finally in "line" for my hearing IN 18 months!!! 2 denials & now the wait. It's my understanding that my lawyers wouldn't have taken my case, if there was any chance I would not be approved. So that's my silver lining ... Completely stupid. My lawyers told me because of all the fraudulent cases before us, it practically barricaded the path for those of us in need. Selfish Jerks! I say, never apologize for your feelings- some days - it's all we have. Tie a knot at the end of your rope and hang on tight. Is it fair? NOPE! There will always be obstacles but the good news is- we are strong & willing to keep moving forward. Our situations are not for the faint of heart. Allow the fire inside to keep you going. We are all here, in the same boat, & we all want each other to find the most comfort. 💗💗💗 #preachit

Feb 12, 2016 10:05 AM

No, it's not fair. The reason they do this to you is two-told: (1) there are jerks out there who fake their way in and it hurts people like you. (2) I call it greedier - not only are they greedy and don't want that money coming out of their pockets, but their greed is even deeper and they want more and more. The only way for them to get more is to deny as many people as people.

So they and others keep labeling you. It's pretty rotten that you have to suffer, not only because of your medical issues, but also to fend off these negative connotations as well.

Feb 12, 2016 10:38 AM

This is what I say - I have paid into My social security, since I was 14 years old. I need to use my money - so stop keeping it from me!

Feb 12, 2016 3:25 PM

Phoenix going thru the exact same thing with SSDI. I know how you feel to the littlest feelings . Sorry sweetie. We just have to fight the battle! Love you bunches.Terri

Feb 13, 2016 10:25 AM

Pheonix, I am so sorry you are going through this. You don't deserve this. Nobody does. I understand you are fed up and tired. It sounds like this is on your mind every day. It must be because you worry about how you will be supported. I would be tired and fed up too. I would be so angry. But don't let that anger consume you. It would be hard not to if it were me. I say keep on fighting. They are depending on you to give up and go away. Mention that you will get a lawyer. Do you have a university hospital around you or one you can travel to. Maybe you can get some free healthcare to prove you need your disabilty. Maybe a different doctor can help.

If you can do this, or if you can retry your case, find a way to seperate yourself from your anger. I know that sounds easier said than done. But you can not control the outcome. So prepare yourself by trying to come to terms with your feelings because those are making your pain worse. It has to be. I am saying this out of concern. I know it sound simplistic. I know it would not be easy for me or anyone. My best wishes for you Pheonix. There is true concern for you from me. I am truly sorry that you have to deal with this.

Feb 14, 2016 5:01 AM

Phoenix, I'm new here, just found this app, still getting used to it... But your rant (a well deserved release ;-) really hit home for me... I just wanted to say your not alone, though I know it feels like it, constantly. I first started getting sick when I was 9... The only reason I'm still here is because my mother is a crazy protective tiger... She fought for me when I couldn't... I'm 36 now, & I can usually fight my own battles, but I still need help sometimes, like everyone does. We fought for 6 years to get me on SSDI. At about 2 years I had an appeal hearing (because they had denied me) that was heard by a corrupt judge, who was later disbarred for committing fraud against SSI. I very nearly committed suicide after that.
I won my case when I was 16. And then they kicked me off when I turned 18 (because apparently turning 18 cured me lol) I fought again, and after a few years, won... It was hell. And the crap I get from people for being so young, and 'healthy looking' is a constant knife in the gut... It's let up a little since I passed 30, but it's still there...
I'm so sorry your going through this... The fighting for survival and treatment, on top of fighting for income is an insane requirement of anyone... Please know you are not alone in this...

Feb 14, 2016 1:30 PM

I got bs like that too. I wrote them and told them what I thought. I addressed every lie and every twist. I got disability shortly after that. It was a three year battle in total no Lawyer. I'm in Canada though. Don't give up. That's what they want you to do. They don't have hearts.

Feb 14, 2016 1:41 PM

My retirement disability made up tons of stuff on thier denial and said the doctors and psychiatrist said I am fine and can work. Which they did not. I am waiting on a hearing. My family has been homeless as i was the major bread winner. They want you to give up that is what they are waiting for.

Mar 05, 2016 7:52 AM

It's a big game with ssdi. I'm going into my 2nd year trying to get it and next is my hearing which we expect in September. It's crazy how they deny those who really need it. But I have a feeling once in front of the judge I will get it. So I am happy about that. Bless you and keep applying

Mar 05, 2016 8:59 AM

Phoenix, I too am so sorry you are experiencing this frustration. Each time I read these Post I get so afraid of thinking about applying for social security so I push myself to keep working. It maybe killing me. I actually know of people who I believe have faked their way through. It discussed me then and even makes me more angry now. It's not right and it makes me want to zap those decision makers with every ailment that afflicts us with it for 48 hours so they can have a taste of the person's life they are denying. Do not apologize for venting! Express yourself here however it brings relief. If I were a person who swore some days my posts would be more colorful. Your check will be in the mail eventually if you don't give up. You have truth on your side. Peace & Grace!

Mar 07, 2016 9:19 AM

I've been where you are and with a great attorney you can whoop their asses and make them pay. What state do you live in?

Mar 08, 2016 6:43 AM

I always advise people to have their own doctors. The company's doctors get paid by the company. The same is true for social security. Those doctors are paid by social security and they are loyal to them because they get paid by then and want to continue to get paid. This is the world we live in. I'm surprised that your lawyer doesn't have his list of doctors that he's successfully used in the past that he could refer you to.

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