Sure it's purely hormonal but I just feel kind of put out. Out of place and stuck. Trying to put my life in some sort of order and its not going to well. Physically evey time I make two steps forward i get hit three steps back and I'm just told to take it slow bady steps.blah blah. I know it's good advice but doesn't make the action or the lack t of any easier. I don't know just so scared for a lot of things. My life my family, my hopes dreams which I've basically given up on. Every time I see a Dr it's another issue another test. Then the nasty looks like what we are talking about in the other thread. I'm just tired and rwady for a rest.
I completely understand what you are going through but it goes along with good days and bad days..don't beat yourself for not being able to make progress that you want. Any progress is progress. I don't want to tell you that you should give up on your dreams but you have to be realistic and you may want to tweek your dreams to something that is realistic.. we have all lost so much of what we used to be able to do and the person we once where but now you have to find the new you.. find something you are capable of doing and enjoy doing that doesn't stress you or make your pain worse.I started doing these paint by numbers and I love them..not ideally how I saw my life going but I had to change and adapt to the new me. I also started doing aqua fitness as my exercise and it is fun and not as hard on my muscle and joints..just hang on some days are good some days are terrible! Here for you if you need to talk xo
Newfibrogirl, We've all been where you are, was understand. Your year this year is like mine was last year. It feels like being on an amusement park that won't stop, and it gets old quickly. Anna is right, that it takes time to accept the loss of our old self (whether in reality or in the ideas we had), and begin to develop our new selves. Just try and focus on what you are dealing with right now. There will be time to handle the rest later. Rest, recuperate from your treatments, do your PT as you are able, and focus one day at a time. Enjoy whatever you can, whenever, and for however long you can. And try not to be so hard on yourself.
I know my own expectations of myself was set way too high for anyone, but that was my type-A personality that I was raised to be. And I've had to chisel away at, and learn that it's ok not to be perfect, it's ok not to get it all done, it's ok to ask for help, and it's ok if I don't (or another) get it right. Whew, what a relief to let all that go! Hugs love & prayers for peace to just rest, strength to get through, and acceptance to love the new you (even if don't know exactly who you will become)! 😘🙂💕🙏🌸💐🌹🌼🌻💮🏵🌷
Hi fibrogirl I'm new here but just read your thread and I'm going through exactly the same this week. I'm not a cryer but it's all I've done the last few weeks. I'm very lucky to have what I've got, but I feel like I've lost so much. Friends, family, career, opportunities, social life. Some days I'm fine and I'll just Potter around quite happily, but other days or weeks I feel so worthless to anyone and pointless (would NEVER do anything about these thoughts- they're just thoughts!) . I never have much to look forward to anymore and I have noone to have any fun with. I've completely withdrawn. So, I just want you to know you're not alone. Next week is a new week and I'm hoping a good one -or two if we're really lucky- to make up for this one xx
Hey Kate88a Sorry to hear things haven't been going so good for you! I feel like it comes in cycles..I have weeks at a time where I feel like I am drowning in pain and misery and I can't swim out of it! You get a good day here and there just to keep you going! I know how hard it is and we all seem to understand each other without even knowing one another. You have to walk in our shoes just to really understand! We all have thoughts like you do , anyone who suffers a life like ours would have these thoughts too. Anyway hoping you have a good day soon. !😉