I'm so tired right now!
I finally got mostly over the cold, but now I'm feeling stressed by my stepmom, who's losing touch with reality, and seeming more and more like my biological mom every day.
It's eery, they both fantasize about having a perfect designer-looking house, they both expect my sis and I to follow their religion blindly, they quote the same books, they both make my heart beat like I'm being chased.
My stepmom says she loves us, but she avoids us, preferring to listen to people talk about how helpful it is to have frequent emotional outbursts, and telling my sis and I that she wants to run away with another family.
She used to be more open minded, and laugh and joke and be fun but now I just feel stressed.
My whole family is realizing how hard it is to have her around, and we're all trying to give her one more chance.
At my last coping clinic visit, I realized how stressed I've been feeling under the surface.
She's convinced that if I just did what she said, then all my pain would go away. It's sad, and scary that things will likely blow up soon. I think she'll go live with the other family, who believe in the same religion and belief system as her. My dad will probably have to do a bunch of odd jobs again. He's done construction, instrument repair, fencing, real estate, taxi driving, and more.
My family's planning an intervention, but we all want her to be happy. We are going to give an option, family and individual/behavior therapy, or move out. It's scary as hell for me, but this stress is not helping me get better. I keep doing things that I know will cause physical pain just so I don't have to deal with my stepmom.
Just yesterday, my sis and I decided to just sit and talk instead of doing the things we love, so she wouldn't freak out about a mess. Now my stepmom is sick, I'm exhausted, and my dad and sis are semi asleep. I want to know where the switch happened for my stepmom, but she can't see the way she's hurting us.
My sis recently cut off all communication with our biological mom because she's too stressful, but now it feels like she's still living with us. My mom and stepmom absolutely hate each other, maybe it's because they're looking in a mirror?
Right now, my whole body is shaking and I'm terrified. This just plain sucks!
I don't know what to do.