Just needed to pop on here for a few minutes. I'm learning that it's okay to be afraid of the unknown, but it is better if you can talk about it before it gets to this stage. I posted several weeks ago about having a "lump" that I caught back at the end of June. Have noticed that it is starting to become more uncomfortable and also changing in size, so I know that I need to go back to the surgeon ASAP. My only problem with going is that my body almost automatically associates surgeon=pain. It's just an automatic response. The only options that she gave me the last time is to either do an ultrasound guided needle biopsy or an open surgical biopsy, but won't know anything until tomorrow morning.
I just needed to speak it out loud today, just so that I can kind of stop worrying about it today. Going to try to just relax today and try not to let the fear come back in. Thanks for listening.