New I may not be on much but you have been in my prayers and still are. I was paying your situation would get better, I know you have been struggling for so long and I hate to see you go through what you are and have gone through already. I'm here for you.
I appriacte the kind words guys. I'm so tired of going around this same thing and havi g more things thrown on me. I'm start g to feel comfortable with the pain and the hopelessness. The mask I wear is near burnt permanent on my face. Every time I try to make a step forward hear comes another stone on my head.
I understand. I used to wear a mask on my face . When people ask how I am doing. I SMILE and say I am good . But I wasn't. I hurt too much inside. Now I learned it's okay to say no I'm not okay. Sending prayers your way. Please don't get comfortable in your circle of pain.
Interesting enough my psych visit the Dr told me That I should work on developing my short story. Instead of saying nothig is wrong or I'm ok and know I'm not. I should give people the short story knowing that not everyone will care but it more honest I won't feel as hidden if I start telling the partial truth to people.
I find it more stressful to explain myself and justify health issues rather than just not saying anything. It’s perfectly fine to explain yourself if you want to do that. Not even my closest friends know abou my struggles. I don’t want to be a burden, treated differently or felt sorry for.
@newfibrogirl2 if you don’t mind sharing some of what your short story is? Maybe I can pick up some pointers and try making a short story for myself. If not that’s ok too. I’ve been given great advice from others on this board. Thank you.
LAT I dont mind at all. My short story starts with double pneumonia spent about a month in the hospital. After that I never got better as far as feeling g better. My Gp at the time had been running test and discovered I had sever large tumors in my uterus. That's when it got crazy. After a yesr of treatment and two operations the tumors grew and attached to my adbomal wall displacing my uterus up towards my ribs. At thr end of it all Drs found 8 tumors 5 to 6 lbs each on the left side of my body. The tumors had fused together and attached to my left overy and was wedged on my left pelvic bone totally destroying my uterus. Which caused them to have to do a full hysterectomy. I'm only 37. So that is the short story lots of little things in between that's as for now I'll leave you with that.