Okay since having this sciatica I feel way older than I am, I'm 24 and i can't do anything. I can't walk without help I can't even get in or out of the bath without help. I'm not sleeping and if I do I wake up every hour in pain my beds has to be at a angle cause I can't sleep flat. I have no life because if I leave the house I'm home an hour later in pain.
How old do you feel? I'm 53 & with all my issues I feel about 70 or more. Seven years ago my dad was in really good health, except for cancer remission. I told him all the time that being around him made me feel really oooold, because he walked and got around easier than I did then. He's caught up with me as his health has crashed at 84. But I couldn't help but think back then, "if I feel this bad now, what will I do at 70!?!?"
Oh!! How I can relate to you both. I often say I'm 54 going on 100!! I also have sciatic pain, which with my fibro makes me walk using a stick. Well I can only walk a few yards at best. I have to use a scooter these days. Depending where the pain is the most determines the age I feel!! But my mum who is 80, is far more mobile and agile than me, pleased for, but soooo depressing for me!! As you say if you are like this now what will we me like 20 years on!!! Oh well it will be what it will be:-))
I'be had this talk with my mother (who not only shares some of my medical issues, she's also my neighbor) & we've decided that it's not what your body feels like but what your heart & brain feel like. The only problem we have with that is that she ends up being around 8 years old & I end up being 5.
I can totally relate... The best thing that seems to help after meds dont help or anything else is playing some music, along with deep breathing and guided imagery. Basically just trying to get my focus off of it
I can relate to you, paperdolly. I'm 24 too, and I had to drop out of college 3 years ago because I was in too much pain to function. I'm at home, living with my parents, my teenage sister, and my 90-year old Grammy (who is often more active than I am). I guess that in order for me me to have a fulfilling life, it's all about the baby steps. I make little goals, even if it's something as simple as reading a page from a self-help book once a day, or walking a few laps around the pool. Some days I am lucky to feel well enough to do a lot more than this, and I try to treasure those days and any relief of pain that I can find. I practice meditating. I recall happy memories from when I was a kid. I try so hard to focus on the ways I can help others, and I try to think of creative ways to do this even with my limits. Basically, I find ways to progress, even if that progression is about as fast as a baby snail. And one of the most important ways I help myself: I allow myself to dream, even when they seem impossible. I talk through my pain and sadness with the people I trust, especially my mom. One of my all-time fave books is Jonathan Livingston Seagull, and (surprise, surprise) it's all about progression and moving forward. Don't compare yourself to the people around you, who probably have very different lives and struggles than you do. If you have to compare yourself to anyone, compare to the you of yesterday. Anyway, those are just a few of the thoughts I had when I read your post, and I hope I didn't sound like a preacher! I hope you can find your own path to choosing happiness, no matter how much pain you are in, or how exhausted you feel. My heart reaches out to yours. ❤️
Skeddadler thank you! I'm in a lot of pain today and that's helped i just miss what I could do before this all happend. I miss being able to just go for a walk I can't even walk up the stairs. But I have my husband who has been my hero through all of this, he also puts up with my moaning and crying. But people who don't understand what the pain we go through everyday is like make me frustrated oh can't you just walk it off oh I wish I could. Any who I'm just in a bad mood lol.
Boy, I can TOTALLY relate to what you say, paperdolly. I am 53 and I think about this all the time. I am so disabled by my pain now that I can't imagine what 70 will be like! I have to say, however, that I'm really impressed with skeddadler's comments to you at just 24 herself! Quite astounding and positive words for someone who had to leave college due to pain! I have terrible sciatica pain as well that has disabled me. I can deal with the back pain, it's the leg and ankle pain that does me in! I just found thirds app and have already read 3 postings of yours that echoed my own feelings tremendously! I look forward to looking for you in the future.