Having a really bad fibro day after getting a wisdom tooth pulled.
I've seen all these videos of people saying and doing silly things after the sedation, I woke up crying about a miscarriage I had 4 months ago. The pain of it is really strong right now despite knowing that it wasn't a good time. I've recently left my BF of a year due to the fact that he was becoming abusive and causing my sickness to become worse l. He's done the expected turn around and text me everyday asking how I'm doing and saying he loves me and continue to fight for me and has recently started telling me how much he wanted to have a family with me and that he's ready to take care of me the way I need. I don't believe him of course, as much as I want to. He doesn't know I've had a miscarriage or that I was even pregnant so when he starts saying those things it's hard not to feel that pain all over again. Was it my fault my baby died because I couldn't eat or take care of my body properly?
I wish this wasn't so difficult, he was so amazing in the first part of our relationship but as I got more sick and work started really effecting me he got tired of me and not knowing how to help and started treating me bad instead. I want to believe him again when he says he's got me, that he won't neglect me and do things he needs to do to help with the house and help me. But how do I when he's why I feel so weak and hate myself so much. There's only so many times you can call some one weak, pathetic or a hypochondriac or other various words before your sorry's no longer erase them and that's all you're really left with.