September 25, my stepmom fell and broke her hip, needing a partial replacement. She has progressive Alzheimer's, so the anesthesia messed her up. After surgery anesthesia and pain meds she only responded with 1-6 words, and couldn't tell us she's in pain because she doesn't understand what we say half the time. Two weeks postop (10/14) she was found beside her wheelchair, and dislocated the hip. She had severe facial contusions and a possible concussion, but they had to sedate her lightly to put the ball back in the socket. Cooked her brain even more, where she recognized our faces but not our names; can't say where she is either. The first rehab wouldn't take her back because she was bedridden, so we sent her to a LTC & rehab. Six weeks postop (11/5) she dislocated the hip again, meaning another week in the hospital, more sedation to reduce the dislocation, and juggling schedules to sit with her (must be supervised), but I hired night sitters each time. The last 2 days she was at the hospital I had to hire day sitters because I can barely walk now. She's back at the LTC Rehab, on flat bed rest for 3 weeks minimum or more, wearing a bilateral leg wedge along with a bucks traction to keep her from moving the leg.
I have been having severe pain in my left hip socket on & off for 1-2 years, but it flared up with stepmom's latest hospitalization. It painfully pops & clicks, and feels like it's moving out of place. I finally saw my orthopedist Friday and he says he thinks I have Avascular Necrosis of the hip joint, so he's getting an MRI the day before Thanksgiving, and I find out the results the 30th. I'm in terrible pain, unlike anything ever before, even with all my prior surgeries & fibromyalgia combined. He alluded to multiple meds I am or have taken being a possible cause, including gabapentin & my asthma steroids. Oh yay! With my Fibromyalgia Sjogrens OA and hypothroidism it's going to be difficult for me to heal he said, but I may need a total hip replacement. I've been reading up on AVN and treatment and recovery, and it's also a very debilitating recovery. I'm worried I might not heal from it. I'm worried how my husband will handle the household. Worry worry worry. And I haven't even grieved losing my Dad in May because of all this. My psychiatrist told me Wednesday to take care of myself or I will end up in the hospital. I don't know, maybe it would be a vacation.
So I hadn't seen my stepmom since Wednesday evening as I've been resting myself. But my hubby and I went today. She was barely chewing her food (being spoon fed by staff), and it was like it was taking all her energy to eat. She would stop between bites and sigh then breathe deep then turn toward the spoon for more food. After eating she fell asleep and her breathing was very rapid and shallow. We stayed a little longer but it was very depressing because she can't carry on a conversation, and no longer responds when we talk about things to her.
I can feel depression taking hold of me and it worries me. I don't want to have Thanksgiving or Christmas. I don't want to be with people. I just lose myself in reading and watching TV. We were suppose to go see our daughter in TX in October, when my stepmom dislocated the first time. Now she and her boyfriend plan to come here with their dogs and his daughter Christmas (a few days). I want to feel excited but really just dread it. I feel like we need to decorate the house and I'm just not up to it. I haven't felt this low in over 20 years. And it's very hard for me because I've always been an upbeat positive person most of my life. I am becoming a stranger to myself, and I don't like it. 😢