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Feeling so vulnerable please help

Jun 24, 2017 12:35 AM

I just got told I am starting gabapentin. I am pretty much having extreme anxiety over just the thought. I know this seems like a small ordeal to most of you but for me it is a huge deal. I Do NOT handle oral medications well. I end up with ever side affect ever and exasturbated by a lot. Even my doctor said I react really bad. I have heard so many negative things about this, also next is a spinal tap and my doctor suspects my pain will significantly increase. My doctor also thinks that they will only ever be able to make my pain manageable. I am struggling with this thought I feel SO vulnerable. I am only in my mid teens and it's becoming hard to remember what living life before an of this pain was like. I have so many hopes and dreams that are slowly getting crushed by the pessimistic attitudes of my doctors and parents. I am feeling so crushed disappointed and more vulnerable than ever. I feel like I am getting used because of my pain if that makes sense but so many people have only been friends with me or "liked me in that way" because they feel ba for me. My thoughts are swirling I don't know what to do.

Jun 24, 2017 1:13 AM

Ken, have you found a support group pertaining to your cysts yet, I did not know you were so young. If i read this and the last post I commented on you have had MRI'S that show cysts? Right? Well, I will tell you my story on the cysts that are on my spine. A neurosurgeon told me that they do not cause symptoms, but after doing tons of research I found that is what they are taught unless they have come out of med school after 2011. So after agreeing to do what that doctor wanted me to do I have so many problems that I would not have had if I had done my research before hand. I found that there are only a hand full of doctor that will treat my cysts. Other doctor's have called them quacks. From this I hope you do find a group to join and learn before you have that spinal tap. Spinal taps should be the last resort of any doctor. If you developed a spinal fluid leak after then you will have the worst headache imaginable. I don't know what country you live in but please talk with your parents so they can help you join a support group. In our group we discuss everything, and I mean everything.

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