so i started operating heavy equipment in 2002 started in a off road dump truck an set my sights on a excavator. an few years later i was clearing land on a excavator ( taught myself ). an then started playing wit a dozer and rough grading. it was hard work an tougher dealin with tha men. ( an women ). catty women. i had days id cry an days id b pissed off an days id feel humiliated. i was called names an told to quit an treated like dirt. ive had other women operators cause me problems - get me fired - try to run over me - try to fight me - talk shit bout me. ive been sexually harrased numerous times an taken as a joke. i been told i caint b hired cause id b a distraction. ive been told that i caint handle the job an i shouldnt apply. ive been turned down on interviews cause the companies didnt believe in women in tha field. ive went on field exams on equipment an told id b making conciderably less than im askin an what i was worth. the point of this is...i didnt let it beat me. i kept on keepin on. even when i was put on shoveling limerock in tha scorching summer sun wit no shade for 10 hrs. i knew i loved heavy machinery an i wasnt givin up! so threw tha years i gained as much knowledge as i could. an there would typically be someone on tha job sites that believed in me an gave me a chance an showed me some ropes. i went from clearing land to dirt work. learning digging ponds an loading trucks. i worked hard an learned hard every chance i had. i nearly killed myself a few times learnin! so now an in tha past 3 yrs ive gained extensive knowledge. i operate a excavator like noones business. an my husband whom is a general superintendant has pronounced me tha best dayum excavator operator he has ever seen. an hes been in this business for 30 yrs. others have piled aroun to watch me as well an to thier shock found that i can hang wit tha best of um. an maybe some the best ones might try hang with me. lol. i am runnin GPS on any dozer. finish an final grade. building roads, slopes, swales, ditches ext. purdy dayum good at it too. i have gotten myself up to 18.00 an hour. so tha sad part of this story is.. for tha last 7 months i aint worked. 😥. THANK YU FIBROMYALGIA!!! an tha way it looks i prolly wont again. an the
L💘VE i have for heavy machinery is purdy much washed down tha drain. i finally reached a point id been aimin for. confidence - equality - freedom. im very angry that fibro has taken this away from me. an that it aint gonna go away. i was makin my way up to makin over 20.00 a hour. i mean like well over. this subject is so very sensitive for me. this chronic pain has taken 17 yrs of hard work sweat an tears an jus trashed it. im mostly feelin in denial. an have not fully excepted any of this. i keep thinkin imma go at it again. but im foolin myself. 😑😑😑. id love to hear ya’lls stories! in a way it helps to know we all are in tha same boat with chronic pain. bot that its at all a fun boat cause really its a boat thats goin down. but lets share our stories. helps to get it off ya chest an to communicate with others who get it!😞.💪. the saddest strong we’ll ever have to b with our selves.