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Fits of depression

Oct 12, 2015 8:02 PM

I have suffered from depression for years, even long before any if my diagnoses like the fibro. I am not medicated for the depression. I also suffer from anxiety for which I do have Buspirone to take as needed. Lately I find myself having what I have termed "fits" of depression. They come on super quick got hard, then a few hours later seem to be gone just as quickly. Does anyone else have this happen??? Do you have any suggestions on how to prevent them or at least handle them when they hit?

Oct 12, 2015 8:07 PM

that sounds like something you should be talking to a professional about.

Oct 12, 2015 8:45 PM

Have you talked to your pdoc about it? Sometimes it takes trials of tweaking--maybe your doctor can add something to help for the breakthrough episodes you're describing. Plus you want to make sure it's not the med, or maybe it's something that goes away after a while with buspirone. Depression has so many causes so it's hard to know about another person. But maybe someone here has experience with Buspirone. I hope it's at least helping with the depression. I have to be really careful--depression is still under treated and it's easy for me to be overcome by my own. Good luck, I hope you find some answers or leads.

Oct 12, 2015 8:49 PM

I just saw that you're not being treated for the depression, the buspirone is for anxiety. Not sure why you're not taking anything for depression as well if you've struggled with it so long, maybe that's what you want to talk to the dr about. Something you might add with the buspirone that might help the depression too. Sorry I'm dead tired!

Oct 12, 2015 9:46 PM

Rstahl, what do you mean by fits of depression? Is it just short episodes of being sad? Is it more like something you're doing or something someone else is doing or says makes you feel down, rejected? Or is it more like hearing yourself, others, or your life? Your doctor would need to know this to determine what may be happening.

You should keep track of your symptoms; how you feel, day & time, what may have triggered the change, etc. And take it to your doctor. I've had depression for years, on & off. But the last episode (current) showed a serotonin imbalance. My doc says I'll likely need some amount of antidepressant for the remainder of my life. Good luck and you'll be in my prayers! 🙏🌼

Oct 13, 2015 6:01 AM

Dear Rstahl09, what do you mean by "fits" of depression?
I to have had depression and anxiety throughout my life. I am a 47 year old female. Within the last 2 years I have discovered that my initial diagnosis may of been wrong. Thus my treatments may have gone differently. In this time I am thankful that I currently have a different worker who has opened my eyes up to trying different ways of coping. Talk therapy, holistic alternatives like art therapy, meditation, mindfulness, acupuncture, self acceptance and self compassion, and now we are moving onto another therapy using eye movement. Reinforcing exercise, good eating, rest, self acceptance, relaxation. It has been a very difficult ride these past two years with realizations of what my life has become, home life and extended family. I now think that the depression and anxiety has gotten worse because of my life growing up and living in a very insecure unstructured life, lots of fear and uncertainty growing up. I did not learn healthy coping skills. I am reacting I think because I have kept with me old ways or even not the right timing of treatments in the past. This depression feels like it has latched on for 10 years, I wish I could have a break from it. Treatment has been challenging from ECT, medication, life /family challenges. I speak for myself and with the support of my psychiatrist I came off antidepressants and some other psychiatric medications. Knowing that they may have helped in the past and now they don't, compounded with side effects and taking other medications. For me I was getting sicker mentally and physically. I needed a change in treatment. My one medication left is a bandage and not a cure. For me I realize now and wish that when they prescribed me the many medications that they needed to come with an exercise and nutrition program for all the weight gain or cbt for anxiety. For me in cases of prescribing things for Anxiety, antidepressants, antipsychotic or mood stabilizers. My liver and body needed change. Yes I am still depressed, in fact wish and have planned my death. And in the past year have been hospitalized, in respite, and a place that takes people who are somewhat stable and but need support. Death is a comforting coping method since I was young only understanding that now. I am trying to find my spot on earth because I believe that I have a right to a life. I chose to have a child, a much wanted baby, and if I were to die by suicide I have now increased her chances of doing the same. She has told me that if I were gone she would follow me because she needs me. I chose to put her here but I do not have the right to take her life away from her. I need to figure life out and live. Yes genetics is a factor in my situation but the environment I grew up plays a big part. Even if my Mother wanted me to forgive my Dad, the abuse continued. He died two years ago and still the effects live on. With my past and current life it has taken a tole on my physical health. Classic illnesses such as ibs, fibro, headaches, migraines, chronic pain, pelvic pain, tmj have shown up. For me I think they are related to depression and anxiety, probably because of post traumatic stress.
I think everyone is different and need to seek what ever treatment works or that they need.
I am thankful to hear about other people's journeys through this maze of life.

Oct 13, 2015 8:32 AM

(((Hugs))) & a prayer for you Beetsrgood! I wish you a blessed day, and a relaxed outcome through your journey! I've been there, and its all water under the bridge for me now. I have peace and love life, not my illnesses. 🙏🌼

Oct 13, 2015 8:36 AM

Beetsrgood, I'm really glad that your daughter is giving you a reason to keep fighting for life for now. I've struggled with suicidal tendencies for well over a decade, but my husband and my mom are my two biggest reasons for fighting on. No matter how hard it gets, we were put on this earth for a purpose. It's so hard to find that purpose when health problems and pain keep us home-bound.
Rstahl09, I really hope you find a Dr (whether holistic or regular) that can help you. And I pray that you find reasons to keep fighting for yourself. Live. REALLY live. Our time on this planet is really nothing more than the life of dew on the morning grass. Live every moment as fully as you can. And know that just bc you have a bad moment or bad day, it's only temporary and it's not a bad life.
Hugs and prayers to you, my friends. Let's struggle on.

Oct 13, 2015 8:46 AM

I'm so sorry, Beets for all that you've endured. I have been through similar experiences with father figure (as i call him) and medications. I do not react at all well to antidepressants. I wish i did because i with add them to the list.

Rstahl,how long do your bouts last? Mine come on strong and all of a sudden I'm trying not to cry. Someone else wrote about severe depression and there were some great suggestions and support from the community. Think someone already mentioned this but talk to your pm doc and see if maybe some of the meds may be causing it

Did it just come on?
Did you have a recent medication change? (in the last 6-9 months it can even be a factor as long as a year ago because sometimes we don't notice especially when we've been dealing with depression for so long)
Any anniversaries of painful memories? Or the such.

I am so sorry that you're going through this. But please for all you suffering depression please know you're not alone. Many of us who survive chronic pain often battle depression as well. I'm thinking of y'all and I will be sending y'all some healing hugs and some sunshine to peak through those clouds.


Oct 13, 2015 11:49 AM

Rstahl09, what you describe sounds just like me. I have struggled with terrible anxiety and depression all my life. I think about suicide a lot; but I'm too much of a coward to actually try anything, so I wish I would just never wake up again. My emotional state has been characterized by feelings of numbness, sadness, irritation, anger, then sorrow, grief, hopelessness, worthlessness, frustration, and then what I called "bouts of doom." With the bouts of doom, it was like this blanket of blackness and anguish rolled over me, and I knew that I was going to die, and I knew what that truly meant.

Even when I felt happy, it was brief. I was diagnosed with severe generalized anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. Recently though, I was diagnosed with Bipolar2, and was told that because I had been misdiagnosed that I have been given medication (Cymbalta) that actually worsened my symptoms.

Altho it sounds like I am not being helped by going to the doctors, I am. Talking to a psychologist is immensely therapeutic, and hopefully my new medication (lamotrigine) will start working soon and help even more. Please, see a psychologist and psychiatrist. I promise u it wil help.

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