Horrible 30 minute flare. It was a spot in my back, and I was sobbing so it was awful. I had to have pressure on it or would start feeling insane. When I say insane, I mean feeling suicidal but forcing myself to breathe through the cries. It's bad. It's scary. But at least I made it through. I've never had my back hurt like this. I was reading about a bill about required vaccines, which have some obvious potential problems. It seems like a bad idea, especially for my family with genetics that make our immune systems weak. But that's just me. I'm really tired, so bye. T
Hang in there, Ferretbandit. I know how very hard it is and I have been there where I have sat here and sobbed for 5 hours because of being so overwhelmed with pain and thinking, what the hell am I doing here.. How long do I have to suffer like this?? I know it gets scary because I, too, have had thoughts of suicide at times. However, my faith in God that he walks beside me and will not give me more than he feels I can bare and the fact that I was guided to this wonderful community of really special people that I consider a Godsend to me. I know now, even on a larger scale, how very much I am valued here and also that there are such wonderful people here that always remind me that I am never alone. Also, it helps me to feel better if I can be here to help others. It takes the focus off of myself and if I can help someone else feel a bit better, it makes me feel better. If you find yourself in that kind of situation again, do yourself a favor and go into a quiet space, sit or lay down, focus on your breathing and listen to come comforting music. All the while do your breathing exercises, on each exhale, relax a different muscle or muscle group. You may find that when that happens, you will drift off to sleep which is always nice because it passes the time peacefully instead of being in agony every second. I hope that you feel better. You are in my thoughts and prayers and remember that there are alot of folks here to help you if you need it, there is no need to suffer in silence and certainly no reason to do it alone.