I dont understand. Chronic illness is so weird, it's like you can do everything right and try really hard and still end up in bed on heating pads breathing deeply because the pain is too much. I have a huge test and performance tomorrow and I'm exhausted. I dont really know how I'm gonna get through tomorrow but I know I can... it's just gonna be interesting. It'll be okay. I'm just tired of it.
I'm starting to really hate school. The students are awful and the classes are boring and stressful and only lead to pain.
I've stopped lying to people when they ask me how much pain I'm in. They usually say "rate your pain from 1-10" (I have a friend who is always trying to understand). I used to always say 6 because it didnt lead to any conversations and I didnt want people to think about it but now I'm blunt. When my pain is a 9, I say that. When it's a 4 (lol as if), I'll say that too.
End of rant haha.
Does anyone have any advice for me? My fibro wont stop flaring up and I dont know why. Nothing is really different and I havent been exposed to any of the usual triggers. I dont get it. Maybe one of you will.
Hope everyone's doing okay.
- RFF 💜