I cannot cope anymore. I have an urgent appointment with my surgeon on thursday which im glad but i have no idea what to say to him and it will likley be a consulatant not him which makes it even worst because everytime i see a different one they all say different things. My leg and back pain is off the scale tonight. I ended up at our urgent care centre who said its likley ive trapped a nerve and a disc is likley to be protrouding(how she knew this without even an xray/mri/CT. Put me on bedrest. Which ive done all week. Nothing has eased up. I am trying my jardest not to take any stronger pain medication (after 2xaddictions~clean for 9 months now) i do not want to go down that road again. I need a solution not a pill. Unless a real harry potter can make me a end all pain pill that would be magic! I have a cbd supplement that honestly has been a waste of money. Unless i have so much going on in my body the good stuff doesnt even know wtaf to do either! My tens machine (lol the 10th one i have owned) has also broke. Massage matt has run its course and i am litrelly all out of ideas now. I am going to ask the consultant if he can physically cut off all the pain signals that would be great! Ive done everything theyve ever asked me to do/try. I am so done with this happy positive attitude because thats not working either! I feel i am loosing my mind. Fed up of people saying to me....theres worst off people than you...you need to stay postive...your doing really well...WELL im not! I just throwing one finger up to this pain because i am done. Its beaten me. I cant feel positive about the appointment because they will probay say the same. Nothing more they can do...youre too young to have this....you have a spine of an 90 year old....thank you mr surgeon! Mr ive got a secure job and a pain free life. I would like that too!