I'm not sure if I've posted this before. But I know I've felt this oh so often. I wake up in the morning or just get up in the morning and all the things I don't have or can't do come flooding back. Dealing with a gkinft mom standing over me first thing in the morning and thinking how I have so many bills i cant pay and so many more coming I won't be able to pay . the pain the emotional upset the lack of understanding just all of it. My car battery has died can get anyone to come help me jumo it off been thinking bod jumping it myself. I can goole it.. Yea ..I know.. But I have these and more thoughts every morning.. I try positive thinking and changing how I see things looking at what I have but all I have is tied to others and there willingness to give it. So its not really mine. Sorry this is long and I probably sound selfish but this is really the only place I can get stuff like this out.