8 Months ago when I finally crashed from the wait of all the pain and stress I never dreamed my life want going to get better.
I spent the first week drugged up and sleeping and the following month at many of my doctors looking for answers.
The family doctor for returning continues muscle, joint and bone pain.
My eye doctor for daily changes to my eye sight and more frequent migraines.
My OBGYN for continued fatigue, moodiness and concentration trouble.
The list goes on and on but by the end of that month it was clear they had no interest in doing anything more than sending me on my way with diet and exercise advice. Treating me as if all that was going on was in my mind and if I was skinny and fit it would all a some how magically be ok.
I found in that month ONE advicate who pushed me to keep looking for the right doctors. She is my therapist.
With her help I have found several of the right doctors that I believe are listening and trying to help me.
BUT with all that ( and don't get me wrong the right help is huge ) I still don't feel I am even close to that balance I need to find to live a quality life. Unfortunately my family and the insurance company do not agree.
I have decided not to continue this battle for quality of life and I am going back to work. I will continue to try and find the right balance of sleep, movement, medication and therapy that gets me through each day without crashing, but I fear this will be at a loss to any life out side work.
I am looking forward to feeling like a contributing family memeber and seeing some coworkers. I just hope I am wrong about what this is going to do to my health.