So today has been unexpectedly busy day. Full of movement and keeping face . Now finally able to lay down. Mostly because I almost feel out from all the activities today. So as I lay here Attempting to distract myself from all the pain and debating if I should take the breakthrough meds or not. I remember barely a day a few years ago where today would have been an awesome day and I would have plenty of engery to do much more tonight.
So I'm fighting the feeling to want that life back. Especially considering I've got a highschool friend planning to come to town and we plan to hang out. But today has taken all I have. So when she comes I'm gonna be running on empty. So of course as we all know . If we are allowed time to plan out days accordingly we can or have to adjust. But for the average Joe. These things are no problem. In fact there was a day where days like this would not be an issue. I suppose this is more of a vent. I'm. Im not really sure. But I do know I feel pretty bad and normally would just handle it. And im gonna have to handle it. But at this moment I do wish I could go back. I wish this was not my reality. But it is.. sadly it is...and I suppose anyone who is gonna be apart of my life will just have to accept it..i suppose I should accept it first though huh? .. lol