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Having an "I wish" moment

Jun 03, 2016 6:35 PM

So today has been unexpectedly busy day. Full of movement and keeping face . Now finally able to lay down. Mostly because I almost feel out from all the activities today. So as I lay here Attempting to distract myself from all the pain and debating if I should take the breakthrough meds or not. I remember barely a day a few years ago where today would have been an awesome day and I would have plenty of engery to do much more tonight.
So I'm fighting the feeling to want that life back. Especially considering I've got a highschool friend planning to come to town and we plan to hang out. But today has taken all I have. So when she comes I'm gonna be running on empty. So of course as we all know . If we are allowed time to plan out days accordingly we can or have to adjust. But for the average Joe. These things are no problem. In fact there was a day where days like this would not be an issue. I suppose this is more of a vent. I'm. Im not really sure. But I do know I feel pretty bad and normally would just handle it. And im gonna have to handle it. But at this moment I do wish I could go back. I wish this was not my reality. But it is.. sadly it is...and I suppose anyone who is gonna be apart of my life will just have to accept it..i suppose I should accept it first though huh? .. lol

Jun 03, 2016 10:00 PM

πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ I'm right there with you.

Jun 04, 2016 9:45 AM

Ditto. I have been going to Acceptance and Compassion Therapy because I am right where you are. I have been isolating from friends because after a full day of work because I have nothing left. Some days I wonder how much longer I will be able.to work. Occasionally I have a day where I feel like my old self. it's been so long I feel like it would be better to forget who I was... I long for a day filled with energy, joy and no pain. Hugs!

Jun 04, 2016 4:23 PM

It's one of the hardest things you'll ever have to accept. I understand where you're coming from. There are times where I'm not accepting of my situation and it's been 23 years or more. You've got me to lean on. I'm hear with you.πŸ’•πŸ™πŸ»πŸŒ»πŸ˜

Jun 04, 2016 10:16 PM

It takes years of repeatedly working through the process. But I don't need to tell anyone that about that here... Which is why I love this group. To feel understood is a critical step towards moving forward.

Jun 05, 2016 11:46 AM

I hear ya, most day's anymore I feel like I am only running on 30% of my body's energy at the wake of the day and just want to go back to sleep as soon as I get up and it still doesn't do no good, just wastes the day away for me, but even then I have no energy to do anything and everyone expects me to do just about everything for them, but I put my foot down and tell them to do it themselves. Love, Hug's and prayer's Hun!πŸ˜˜πŸ’•πŸ™

Jun 05, 2016 11:51 AM

I have roommates that are very supportive. I just get very discouraged when I have difficulty standing and walking. Sleep is not my friend. I need to rest but wake so stiff. I pray for each of you to finding healing . Thanks for your support.

Jun 05, 2016 12:53 PM

I am coming up on fibro for 9 years and there are still times accepting is hard. Now I also have stage 4 adrenal dysfunction and it has added an extra layer of hell to my life. One day at a time is all we can do. Gentle hugs

Jun 05, 2016 2:37 PM

That's exactly it... and I ts days like this when I'm feeling like poo and im attempting to entertain Sunday company ( my sister) since she was here yesterday and I slept through her visit. And I'm expecting a friend from highschool to come by and I really don't want her to today. Only because I feel so bad. And I'm exhausted. This is definitely an " I wish" day. I need a lift so I can make.it through.

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