Hi I am new to this app. and wanted to sort of introduce me and VENT my story some. Thanks for listening
I have been in chronic pain for years without any real help until this last year. I had to basically hit rock bottom to get anyone to believe me and I still find myself feeling the need to prove my pain.
In the last 18 Months, on top of the all over muscular pain, I have also had...
* a hysterectomy that almost killed me due to hemorrhaging weeks after
* stress due to my husband having a brain aneurysm repaired
* my 22 year old son from my first marriage threaten my life
* loss of our family pet
* my daughter in trouble with drugs, drop out of high school and move out, then back in after rolling her car (no injuries) then move back out to live with boy friend
* the ups and downs off co parenting my special needs stepdaughter who is at a emotional stage with several of her own mental and health struggles.
All the while trying to succeed at my very very high stress, mentally demanding and always changing job of 15 years.
But what kicked my legs out from under me happened in Sept 2015. My sister in law passed. She was my husband's 12 year yonger sister (34) a twin and the ONLY immediate family my husband and his brother had left. We all stood in the room and watched as they tried to revive her for almost 30 mins and we had to give the doctors permission to stop and let her go.
I held myself together and would even say I was internally proud to be able to hold up my husband ( the most wonderful, loving and carrying man I have ever known ) but days after the funeral I completely broke down. I could not form complete thoughts and the pain through out my body was more server then I had ever felt before. My husband was a mess and unable to understand what was happening to me.
I was sent off by my family doctor to a psychologist, was very over medicated and went on short term disability. Months later I ended up in the hospital with some very lovely elderly dementia patients for a few days.
This turned out to be my next turning point. The psychologist at the hospital listened to me and took me off the meds and got me thru the withdraw. I found new doctors who listen to my whole history and realised the trauma in Sept worsened an on going cronic pain issue that needs addressed and not a mental disorder. Also the hospitalization pulled my husband to my side where he continues to stay trying to help and understand.
So today I continue to be unable to return to work due to being in continuous pain, complete exhaustion and mental fog, but I have been to specialists had lots of testing and believe along with my new family doctor that I have Fibromyalgia. I am finally getting into to see a rheumatologist next month and should then, hopefully, have an actual diagnosis.
As relieving the last few months have been to my piece of mind, I am not physically feeling better and almost in a panic about the loss of my income over the past few weeks do to waiting on approval for insurance coverage after my short term disability ran out.
So that's me right now, thanks again for "listening"