My youngest daughter birthday is soon and I know that I don't get to see her. I am not feeling well due to the memories of the fact that I lost my kids and knowing that her birthday is soon makes life sucks.
Lisa, divorce is a hard thing to go through. I was away from my son for 6 month's when he lived with his dad, my son's birthday is in November, so I had all four hit me about the same time, his birthday, Thanksgiving and Christmas oh don't forget the new year's! I was an emotional mess! It didn't help that his school Called me about the bullying! I lived in a different state and it was really hard and upsetting. I contacted on our positive memories that we had and had a good cry. Sometimes just crying and letting it out helps, have you tried talking to a counselor or therapist? I did for a long time, I had a lot of bad things happen when I was a kid and on up into adulthood, he helped me in ways that I cannot express. Praying for you and your kids!