Hi all. I'm (another) Becca. I've been lurking for awhile.
I have cervical Spondylosis and migraines (mostly). There are other things, but whatever. I have four pain treatments: Radiofrequency ablation, Botox, trigger point injections, and nerve blocks. I'm lucky to finally have a good pain doc--I had one in the past who was horrible! Also, there is depression and PTSD. I also was on a lot of klonopin. For the past three years, I have been going off the bento. I thought there was something wrong with me physically as there were a lot of flu like symptoms, and joint and muscle pain. For years. (I've been on the klonopin since 22, and I'm 39). Well now, it's been so long that I'm worried I have a chronic withdrawal syndrome (I've been off the klonopin completely for 6wks--I won't know really for about 2 years). (If anyone's interested in bento withdrawal, there's the "Ashton Manual” which describes both the effects of bentos and how to get off them.) (bento=benzo--bad autocorrect). I hope I don't have fibro--I have not mentioned it to my doc for fear I do have it. My ears hurt a lot now, and my tinnitus has gotten really bad that sometimes I don't hear too well. Also, when I was 22, I was prescribed Vicodin. Since then, I've been on Vicodin, Tylenol 3, Fiorinal and now percocetv(to name a few). I've a,so been on a whole host of meds like keppra, topamax, lyrica, gabapentin, etc as well as steroids. which were ineffective. I am not good with the meds, and the procedures work much better for me. I do take imitrex. I have been dealing with these things since I was 16, and have gone through PT, chiropractic, massage (when I could afford it), and other things (my brain is shot).
I wake up every morning with that "face headache" so many of you talk about, and I grind my teeth (I have a bite splint), so my jaw is messed up. I have had abdominal migraines which were the worst acute pain I've had--I was screaming and panicked because not only did my outsides hurt, but it was painful to breathe. There was bile coming out of both ends of my body. I ended up with a dilauded drip for 48 hours 😳 at one point. chronic pain is pretty awful, and i feel for all of you that go through this. I feel exhausted from the pain all the time, and I admire you guys for your good attitude and perseverance.
I really feel weird about this program. I am reporting pretty much the more intense pain I have--I'm not used to describing all my pain. I want to have a record to show my doctor.
I was a pretty normal kid with some problems, but because of things like "diagnosis by prescription," and doctors pathologizing side effects as if they were additional problems, I ended up totally over medicated. The pain, the psychological problems, and the meds have had a devastating effect on my life. I'm pretty isolated. I don't have kids. I don't really have friends. And although I went to grad school, I haven't worked since 2005. I have plans, though, and now things are better than they've ever been. But sometimes still, the pain is so bad that I am frozen--but I imagine it could always be worse.
I wish I was religious or faithful. I'm not. But I don't believe a person has to be religious to pray or feel a connection with something greater than himself.
I have to drive for 2 hours straight this morning, and am not looking forward to it
Anyway, I think that's enough. 😀
I know this is bad English, but don't feel like editing... Ergh...