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Hi everyone

Sep 04, 2016 12:19 PM

I joined just 3 days ago when I found the App, and have responded to some of your posts already.

I would like to introduce myself, and this is my situation thus far.

In 1995, I suffered an ACL Tear while in the 2nd Gulf War, and was unable to walk at all.
The Army threw all the pain medication they had on stock at me, with no results. I remained in pain and unable to walk.
I was medically discharged (MED-200 I am sure they thought I was simulating) and over the course of 6 months, I taught myself how to walk again.

Since then, I found out what had happened. My ACL was torn completely off, and because the Army only took an X-Rax instead of a MRI like I requested (cost reasons) they could not see it and said "everything is fine".

Almost 20 years of walking unbalanced due to this injury is what caused my other current injuries.


2004 - Dehydration of all cervical discs excluding C7/TH1
2004 - 12mm primary narrow spinal canal
2004 - Abnormal straightening of the Cervical spine
2004 - Abnormal straightening of the Lumbar spine
2004 - Subligamentary lateral flat cranial prolapse right C6/C7
2004 - Peripheral, with cut, lateral prolapse right Th2/3
2004 - (M42.13) Osteochondrosis C5/C6 with bony neuroforaminal (M48.00) stenosis left and a left lateral (M43.02) retrospondylosis
2005 - (M50.20) herniated cervical discs
2005 - (M51.26) herniated lumbar discs
2006 - (M50.01) Chronical Cervical disc disorder
2006 - (M51.06) Intervertebral disc disorder
2008 - (M76.20) Femoral Acetabular Impingement - both hips
2008 - (M85.551) Subchondral Cyst right femur head
2008 - Marrow Cyst proximity of Femurmetaphyse right
2008 - Subchondral cyst lateral acetabulum left
2008 - (K40) Inguinal hernia left (has since been operatively corrected)
2008 - (K40) Inguinal hernia right (has since been operatively corrected)
2012 - (S83.611A) Right knee Anterior Cruciate Ligament tear (sustained and left undiagnosed in 2nd Gulf War, 1995)
2013 - (M53.1) Cervicobrachial Syndrome with Hypesthesia and physical weakness 4/5 right
2013 - (M50.01) Chronical Cervical disc disorder
2013 - (M79.2) Cervical neuralgia
2013 - (M25.361) Chronic Knee pain right with functional instability
2013 - (M25.362) Chronic Knee pain left with functional instability
2013 - Chronic Hip Pain (due to M76.20)
2013 - Medicine Non Responder (Opioids, NSAID, NSAR)
--here is the reason the vicodin and perkosets the Army was lobbing at me were not working
2015 - (M51.06) Chronical Lumbar Disc Degeneration
2015 - (M50.30) Chronical Cervical Disc Degeneration
2015 - (M76.20) Femoral Acetabular Impingement - both hips
2016 - (M51.9) herniated cervical discs

I have since had my discharge changed to Honorable Discharge and am receiving disability compensation, but only from the date I requested it. The disability money from 1995 to 2012 will never be seen. (roughly 400k). That part still bothers me, but I grin and bear it.

I still work full time when I am not written sick, and have a job where I could potentially work from home full time doing the same tasks, but my department manager does not want to allow me to because he says he has no control over what I am doing in that time frame. That's fine with me, I am looking for another position within the company where I can work from home full time with no pay penalty. I am American, but live and work in Germany. Here they have very specific laws governing how companies may treat persons with disabilities. I can not be fired unless I do something really dumb like steal from the company. It is a tenure of sorts.

Due to the years spent without functional pain medication, I have an above average tolerance to pain. Anything below 5 I can stand and perform at 90%, but it is exhausting. At 8, I start to sweat profusely. At 10, I am helpless.

Most people around me do not believe that I have any problems at all because I "look" healthy. I was a high performance athlete since I was age 5, no drugs, no tobacco, some alcohol. I played American Football, Wrestled Collegiately, and participated in Track. When I entered the Military, I was at my physical peak condition. Even now, as long as the pain medication works, I can out-perform others who have no disability at all.

Since 2013 I have been receiving Dronabinol (an oil derived from Cannabis).
It works. I will say that again due to how overjoyed I am that it does. It works.

The first time I received it, I was a bit hopeless, because I thought it was not working. An hour later, I felt medicine working for the first time in my life. It was undescribable. Once it dropped my pain to a 3, I finally realized just how destroyed my body was.

Since then, I am in physical therapy and manual therapy 2 times a week, and my dronabinol consumption is equal roughly to 2g of pure cannabis a day. I am couch-locked when I take Dronabinol, and because it was causing severe nausea, I have switched to Sativa Cannabis. This works faster than Dronabinol (5 minutes as opposed to 1+ hour) and does not couch-lock me. I am fully cognitive and awake, with a minimal pain level while the effects last.

Sep 04, 2016 4:25 PM

Hi DB and welcome to the community ⚘ i am an adovate of cannabis and i smoke about 2g on a daily basis πŸ€— im so glad u have found the app... 🐴and i hope u can find some great support πŸͺfrom our community 🌷...welcome to the family DB πŸ€—

Sep 04, 2016 8:09 PM

Welcome darkblade, wonderful to see another join the community. I hope we can all be of some assistance at some time or another. The wonderful souls on this site are excellent for advice, sympathizing with and just generally being there when no one else understands what you are going through. 😊🌻

Sep 04, 2016 9:26 PM

Welcome Darkblade! I hope you find a home here with all of us pain peeps. I resemble the remark you made about not looking sick. Sometimes when people ask me how am, social chit chat I just want to scream & tear my hair & scare them with my pain. Instead I force myself to grimace i.e..smile & say "I'm fine" with finality so the conversation moves to "what have you been doing with yourself?" Arrrrrgh..
Like Jack Nickelson said, "you can't handle the truth".
Unfortunately though I am trying my best, I am getting worse day by day. Even with my best efforts & the awesome suggestions from the pain community.
I am considerably happy you found a way of easing the the pain you have. What you shared is very interesting &

Sep 04, 2016 9:28 PM

& worth looking intoπŸ™‚

Sep 05, 2016 2:31 PM

Welcome to our community family Darkblade! Thank you for your service! I'm sorry you got so screwed by the govt system, like so many other military vets I know. I don't tolerate pain meds much, and many psych meds either. But I have two gene defects responsible; one causes me not to absorb & metabolize benzodiazepine correctly; the other MTHFR gene, I can't absorb folate & other B vitamins properly. Because of this I've learned to function with a high tolerance, up to a 7 before I'm taking my tramadol; above 8 and I'm down. Hugs love & prayers you can find the support and new ways to cope here! πŸ™‚πŸ’•πŸ™πŸŒΈ

Sep 05, 2016 2:39 PM

that sounds familiar. I was tested introvenously with a tapentadol-suffentanil-and something else mix to see if my response is caused by a hyperactive liver or genetic.

It was fairly complicated because they had never tested for it before, and had an emergency intubation team bedside. The anesthesiologist told me normally when this is injected, it shuts down the respiratory system (and knock me out) immediately . He was totally freaked out when I kept talking to him after he administered it. 15 minutes later he had 2 more doctors gawking at me. They gave me another shot and i got really sick. Then they administered a neutralizer shot to counteract the opiates.

Turns out I do not have a hyperactive liver. It's Genetic.

Sep 05, 2016 3:52 PM

Darkblade, welcome to our family community. First and foremost I'd like to thank you for your service. A selfless and courageous act that unfortunately goes without acknowledgement at times. I'm sorry for all the pain and issues you have suffered. I am happy, however, that you live and work somewhere that you can not only obtain cannibis for your pain but also that you can keep your job and work from home and still earn your hard earned wage.
I cannot get cannibis here in NY even though it's legal due to my doctor's office not being certified to write the RX for it. I am locked in by contract to only get meds from my pain management group or id be discharged and I need what they are giving me to function. Hoping they finally get certified so that I may get some much needed relief. Glad that you found our community and hope you settle in and find the information and support you are looking for!! πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ»

Sep 05, 2016 7:09 PM

Welcome to our group and sharing your story with us! I am glad you found something to help you with your pain!

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