I was diagnosed with fibro two years ago, but by estimation have been misdiagnosed for at least ten years. I also have sjogrens syndrome which caused my teeth to go bad at a very early age. Well I was taking so much ibuprofen for my teeth I was actually self medicating and didn't even realize it. I finally got my teeth all out two years ago (which prompted me to do a ANA test) my grandmother has lupus and I figured everyone else in my family has been tested I my as well! That's when we found sjogrens syndrome not lupus and fibro. Things have been upside down ever since. My pain has intensified and I started a new job last June to help me get moving and hopefully help me lose some weight and be somewhat normal again. My memory loss is tolerable some days but most days I feel like I'm in a dream not real life. I was making dinner one night getting ready to peel potatoes and for at least five minutes I completely forgot how to peel a potato. I mean who does that. The scariest is when i m driving and forget for a split second how to drive. I worry all the time that those split seconds will turn into more than that. I've taken the meds and hate how I feel on them. So I stopped. I want to go finish school but I'm afraid I'll forget most the stuff I'm trying to learn. That would be a total waste of an education. I'm also a single mom and the hardest thing for me is that it seems I need to choose between being home with them and working cause I can't do both. Sometimes I can but most of the time I'm useless when I get off work. So that leaves my poor boyfriend picking up the slack after he's worked all day and that's not fair to him. Also the comments at work are getting old my boss tells me all the time "I've been here 23 years and haven't missed as much work as you" when I bring them doctors notes and have tried to explain to them what I have and when they hired me I told them I was gonna have a lot of appointments. I'm at my wits end and I'm usually a very positive person. I'm not depressed no matter what my pcp keeps trying to tell me. I guess I'm at that point when I'm wondering when is enough enough? Do start fighting now for disability? How do I even start? Does the doctor do that? Should I just go straight to a lawyer? I'm only 34 years old how has my life come to this? Why can't anyone help? I'll settle for semi normal at this point. I guess that's it, me in a nut shell and probably a story y'all have heard a million times.