I'm a 32 year old female recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia. It started I guess when I was 15 I did gymnastics and cheerleading and my left knee started to hurt. A few years later my right knee. After that my left hip and then to my right hip. Most recently my spine, neck, lower back and right ankle have succumb to the pain. I've had X-rays and MRIs done on my knees that show arthritis. I've been through physical therapy several times and always assumed the rest of the pain was caused by my bad knees. A little over a year ago I was fed up with the pain and I was referred to a rheumatologist by an orthopedic doctor who looked at my symptoms and did a blood work in which I tested positive for HLA-b27 gene. This is the gene that causes hereditary diseases like Ankylosing spondylitis, Reiters syndrome, and RA (which my dad and aunt both suffer from) among others. I first saw my rheumatologist on December 31 2015. He was extremely thoughro and immediately ordered physical therapy, X-rays, and MRIs of my hips and spine. I was shocked when there wasn't any arthritis for him to see except a small amount of deterioration in my neck. With him knowing my history of severe depression and anxiety he diagnosed me with fibromyalgia and Rynards phenomenon. I was Perscribed Cymbalta, he begged me to quit smoking and talked to me a lot about breathing techniques, exercising, and getting hold of my depression and anxiety. That was in April. Since then I haven't taken the cymbalta bc I'm very sensitive to side effects and apparently that medication comes with several. I use askapatient.com before I take any new medication and reviews were terrible. I sunk into a deep depression, which isn't unusual for me but I'm looking for a way to deal with my body and mind possibly in a more natural way. I'm not sure why I'm writing this or what I need from it. Support, understanding, to hear other people's stories. It's hard to wrap my head around much of anything these days maybe there is someone out there who can help me navigate through all this without judgment and without "brain zaps" from meds.
Really I'm just looking for some hope. I don't want to live like this anymore.