There are days I'm okay . Even happy and out of nowhere I get sad and start questioning everything that is going on in my life. The main one is. Do I really belong anywhere ? I know this is a different kind of pain then everyone has been posting . But this is how I feel at the moment. Counseling doesn't help me.
There are times I just want to stop talking all together. Thanks in advance.
The same happens to me. Happy one moment sad the next. Those are the days I'm mostly quiet. Everyone asks what is wrong. I tell them fibromyalgia is what is wrong. Makes me feel they are not listening to me when I explain all about fibro. Very upsetting.
I finally found a good bipolar med that works for me 2 years ago. Been off depression meds since because I am afraid of messing up what I am taking now. However I believe my bipolar meds might also be for depression as well . Idk
Depression is something we have to work I think. It's not unusual to have depression because of PAIN. Try to do things that make you happy. Spiritual things make me happy. Instead of dwelling on death (seems like I'm surrounded by it) religion gives me hope. Even a false hope at times seems better than no hope at all. God bless you!
Westrengirl have you tried doing things like adult/mindful colouring? When I'm colouring I lose myself in the colours I don't really think what colour I should use I look at my various types of gel pens, fine liners and pencils (I even have a few different sets of colouring pencils!) and i choose which colour feels right for that moment.....I have a lot of different sets but I try to buy the bright colours to keep from going too dark when I'm down. Sometimes I go out for a drive, just to drive, sometimes I put the music on (I've only got my daughter's pop CDs in the car but most of them are upbeat!) and I sing along....Very LOUDLY and out of tune and other times i just like the sound of the engine....My new baby has brought my joy back in driving! I had more to write but I forgot what they were!!! Lol too interested in my colouring pens and pencils and my new (pre loved) car to remember!!! 😂
I've found support is best for depression. I took meds but had to stop due to severe reactions to all. I can't help with bi polar disorder but on good days I do more than I should and bad days I suffer and rest the best I can. Unfortunately due to the pain. I can't sleep without a muscle relaxer anymore. Nap when you can I sure wish I could. Talk to those you can talk to it helps. And keep your mind off of what is causing the depressed thoughts. Try not to give them the time of day. The more you feed into them the more it consumes you. Good luck
Some days I wake up and am like hell, this is going to be an amazing day. Then some days I wake up dreading waking up and crying myself to sleep and feeling like no one loves me or cares. I often question my existence. I'm not sure how I deal with it, I just have great people and I just do stuff I love.
I think it's always good to have both a creative outlet (singing, art, photography, writing, etc) and a means of escape (listening to music, watching a deep TV show, reading, etc.). If you have a way to express yourself and a [healthy] means of escape, things can sometimes be a bit better.