I've been diagnosed since 2008 with fibromyalgia even though i've had pains since age 5 in different parts of my body. Last year I was diagnosed with PTSD from an abusive marriage I was in. Physical violence atleast 3x a week. Last year I was also diagnosed with scoliosis, arthritis on my wrists, and piriformis syndrome (which is a condition with your muscles near you sciatic nerves so when I get inflammed my muscles tense up and I feel pain, stabbing, and hot sensations down my legs and feet) Growing up I lost a lot of my friends due to me cancelling a lot of plans or just not being able to play outside like they can. I wasn't able to catch up most of the time. As an adult now, 31, I am still noticing that I have lost all my friends except 1. She has been a faithful friend since age 5. Eveyone else says, "oh lets not plan anything with her.. It's not like she will come" or when they get a call from me even if it's not to cancel the 1st thing they will say is, "let me guess you are in pain and can't make it as usual". Because of this I have become a loner. I no longer make plans.
The worse feeling though is when ur fam and spouse don't understand or choose not to no matter how many articles you send them, YouTube videos, or even taking them to my appointments. Seems to go through one ear and out the other. They do not understand how hurtful this is. " You have to push yourself, stop being so lazy, why are u always in pain?, why are you moving so slow? Move faster!, Let me guess ur in pain again". This brings me to tears each time and makes me want to give up on myself, which I have tried many attempts to end my life because I don't see a reason to live anymore. The last time was this past weekend. I don't know how to shake these feelings off easily and usually puts me in a deep depression that can last who knows how long.
Anyone else has gone through this? If so what has helped? What else can I do for those close to me understand what I go through? I feel real lost.