So its been over 24 hours since I've slept been in severe pain for two days now. I had some business errands to run today that had to be done. I took my sister with me so I would have an extra person to help me think.
Once we got back home which before that I was so tired I had forgotten inhad driven to her house so we picked up the car and headed back to my house in which my calls to tell me that dad had fallen and the ambulance was there. ( dad is OK he was checked out by home nurse and emts)
So while we are sitting trying to catch our breath my sister says oh she thought indid not notice ( referring to me) we walked in a dollar tree and down the walk to another store. And walked around that store.( it was small too,smaller then dollar tree) . she was referring to the fact I was not in visible pain. She is seeing this as an improvement since in Walmart or large stores I have to use the cart.
So the point she was making was that I'm walking more and I'm not in pain anymore. Little does she know I was in horrible pain. Plus exhausted but i had to get the errands ran not to mention the walking I did was stop and go and I was leaning on the shopping cart.
I find it funny that they look for every opportunity to say I'm not hurting anymore. But if they only knew how much pain I was in and the reason I choice to walk to the next store was because it would hurt more to get in the car an out again then it would have been to just walk down to the corner.
I love how my family is hopefully that I will someday wake up all better. But I really wish they would teybto understand how hard I work to hidy discomfort from them. Not to mention the stress of my dad being hurt and the stress that was surrounding that. Since mom was allowing dad to refuse treatment. Even though he had a half dollar sized gash in his head. ( dad is a double cancer patient on blood thinners)
so me, my sister and our neighbor were all vetoing this. It was maddness. Dad was not able to stand and had lost the ability to move is lower half for a few moments. So I was in a panic but yet still trying to not show my frustration.
So this whole day and all I got done and they just don't get how painful it is. Oh..and my sister earlier after running stairs like rocky at 50 yrs old her leg kind of clinched out a few times. And she was comparing her Charley horse to my pain when I loss control or feeling in my leg. I wish she knew how insensitive that is.
So sorry maybe I'm wrong.. But this was a heck of a day for me.