I just got here. They said it is going to be a while. So you know what that means. If they say it is going to be a while and it is 7:00 p.m, I will at least be here til 4:00 in the morning. But I contemplating the problem and thought of the risk. The lumps along with the way they behave, have continued to move and make more. I thought it could be a bacterial infection or a virus. Whafecer the case, finding out will bring me much comfort. I have a feeling something is seriously wrong. I woke up today with the large bumps traveling to my lower arm like a wild fire when they were not there yesterday. Then, I woke up to pain in m.y groin. I thought I must have walked funny. But embarrassingly, I checked. There were like 4 or 5 nodules doin there. So, I don't. Know what is going on. So, I thought it was best to come today since my doctor couldn't fit me in for two weeks. I think she hust had a baby and she is going home to share them with her family. I am happy for her and I think she deserves it. I just can't wait two weeks while they are spreading. I am hoping it is nothing. I have a tremendous amount of Inflammation on my right side because that is where a lot of my arthritis is.
So I will see what they see. I don't know if any of you have read some of my previous post. But not on a prideful way, I have a lot of empathy for people. I guess it is because I love people very quickly and very much. I hate to see them sad and hurt. I can't deal with the fact that I can't fix things for them. It is like I can strongly imagine what it like to be them and then in my mind I see the outcome of their problem. So many times it has come true. Someone said it was all based on human experience. But to do that, you must have a very strong imagination. And I do. I am sorry it has taken me so long to Come to the point. My teacher said I was too wordy. But my strong imagination gets me in so much trouble when it comes To me. I don't think I am a hypochondriac but my family did not worry about anything until it is bad. I always vowed I would not be that way. That I would be preventive. But I imagine all the things that possibly be wrong. But I always stick with the simplest explanation. So that is who I am. It is necessary for me to find out what it is or see me have a nervous breakdown. This explains how much of a nutcase I am. So I would really never take my advice. But I hope this trip to the E.R is going to be a simple explaination like a small infection. So we will see. I hope no one else has to go. But if you do, i encourage you to wear a mask like I do. I take no chances of getting the flu. I don't think I can take that pain on top of all the pain I go through now. Just a suggestion. Take care you all. Have a great evening with your family. I hope you feel the best as you possibly can. Take care my support group friends. Thanks for being there me.