Fair warning...I'm on a poor me trip. Venting ahead!
I've been off work since Oct for an elbow injury. But, so much more is going on leading to chronic pain. Everyone I've seen will only look at the arm, not the whole picture. My physiotherapist thinks the chronic pain is in my head and I need to stay positive. The surgeon says I'm feeling pain because I'm old and overweight. The Rheumatologist says I'm feeling pain because I used to be an athlete, and athletes don't deal well with pain.
Everyone agrees I have arthritis in both my elbows and my knees. There are no other X-rays or CT scans to show any other areas. I'm not looking for something to be wrong with me, but there is something going on. How do I get someone to look at the whole picture?
I've heard everything on the elbow injury from I'm not active enough, I'm too active. I'm too happy, I'm too depressed. My background is important, my background isn't important. I'm overweight, my weight has nothing to do with it. All the focus is only on the arm.
I'm feeling like I'm going crazy, like maybe I'm exaggerating my pain. I don't think I am, but I'm starting to feel guilty, like I'm making a mountain out of a molehill. But then, all the Drs imply that I can't go back to work. I'm so confused, and yeah, I'm feeling confused, anxious and depressed About it all! How do I process all of this? Whose advise do I listen to? How do I get someone to look further? I just want to scream...