I have had CRPS for 3 years now and it has only spread and become more intense every month that passes. I can't eat solid food now because I'll throw it up so I drink yogurt and protein drinks for every meal. On top of the 24/7 pain and 2 hours of sleep a night I have a migraine every other day. I don't take painkillers because they refuse to absorb in my body and anti depressant/ anxiety meds do not work either. I take muscle relaxers to get my hour or two of sleep at night. I'm so sick of this pain, being this young and not being able to leave the house or have a job sucks. I'm lucky the accident that gave me CRPS was in the US Coast Guard only because I get 70% disability. The VA is horrible and never helps no matter how many times I've asked.
My friends all complain about school and work when I cry about not being able to go because of the pain.
I don't relate to anyone I know anymore and I haven't lived a day where I'm happy I've continued this life for well over a year. I can't stand this anymore. Feeling like something is stabbing/burning you every 5-10 minutes is not a way to live. Maybe I'm wrong but I've watched family members die of cancer and I would never wish for them to continue being in the pain they had while dying. But here I am living in torture hating it. I see my pain doctor today at 430pm so we will see if I can start ketamine infusions or not. I'm afraid he wants to put a pain pump in me instead which scares me, I hate surgery (I've had two in the past two years). I don't know how to be positive anymore. The only thing that gives me hope is knowing I will die one day and not be in this torturous body anymore.
Sorry about the rant. I had to vent.