In 2010 I had spine surgery to remove a mass growing between T6-T7 it was the biggest mistake I ever made !
I should have let it grow into a twin brother instead of having it removed !! The mass was non symptomatic at the time but the thoracic surgeon said it was a ticking time bomb ....
I was a very active person .. I worked in the telecommunications field for over 25 years . I was also a weekend warrior !! Softball , football and always running around with the kids ... Now I can't even pick them up !!
After my Failed back surgery I live a life of spinal stimulator , morphine pump implant and oral medication .. And still the pain and spasms find a way through .. At least you can walk is what they tell me .. Be happy you can at least do what little things you can do !! Be happy your not paralyzed ..
I can't take it anymore !! I've been married for over 27 years and had 4 kids .. Now I can't even get exited !!! And all the damn Viagra commercials are only making more depressed !!! I just can't believe the road I have traveled in the past 3 years . I wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy ..
I'm losing hope and can't find my faith !!!!!
My wife and grandchildren are the biggest reason I even get out of bed !!!
I don't know if I can keep doing it for them !!
I'm just sick and tired of this chronic condition . Expecily knowing that I am at maximum improvement .. Yuck
Thanks for letting me vent !!