Had a tough Neurology visit today. Dr. said lumbar area is covered with bone spurs. Another hurdle for me to prove my faith is stronger! Surgery would be the optimal conclusion but I have had three and am not of the mindset to have a 4th. Each one seems to have made me worst. So my neurologist has referred me back to the surgeon that put in my stimulator because I have no leads in the lumbar area. However, he is not sure it it will be possible for them to even run the leads through. I have multidisciplinary bones spirs, large and small. The lead wires might not make it. I trust God, whatever His will is, that will be done!
I went looking for help with the pain, my loss of mobility, comfort in sitting and laying down and sheer loss of sleep. I came home with the same issues unresolved. But I will survive with God on my side.
I am not a religious person and I a confused when I hear people say its in gods hands or believe there is a fixed outcome due to gods will. Does the bible not teach that god gives man free will and he will be judged by how he lives his life? If that is to be true then that would suggest there is not fixed outcome and your decision is your own with no interference from a higher being.
So which is it, do you have free will or does god choose everything for us and ultimately it doesn't matter what we chose as the outcome is fixed.
As I taught my children, every action has a reaction & every choice has a consequence, but the choice to do or not do was always theirs. God gave us free will (since Adam & Eve) to choose how we live our lives. I believe God gives us guidance to seek medical care, and He has blessed physicians with knowledge to heal & treat. I know from His words, God allows bad things to happen to make us stronger, build our character, to give us the ability to empathize with others going through similar situations and be a support to each other. If you've never been through something, how could you understand what others are feeling or suffering? Good hearted people do many good things for others but may not know God, and on the flip side many who call themselves Christians hide actions they don't want others to know of. But I think faith is simply believing. Mine is a true trust that God is who He says He is, and that if we believe wholeheartedly, He will answer our prayers, though not necessarily how we think it should be. Do I ask Him to heal me completely? No, because if He did I just might forget how to be compassionate & humble towards others. Why should I not suffer ailments? Am I any better than a child born crippled, or my mother-in-law who was suddenly struck blind from a stroke? No. I don't deserve any mercy He's given or able to give, but I am ever so thankful He loves me and is always with me, and has helped my faith grow through my trials. My faith in Him, that no matter what I'm going through, He is present & He is my strength, that's what's important, that's what gets me through the tough & painful days. Faith is what you believe... May God bless everyone with stronger faith & strength to cope one day at a time. :)
I'm living proof that praying & faith works! I always remember even as much pain I'm in, it could be worse. I know all of this could be difficult during pain & rough times, but keep the faith. Praying for everyone.