So I’m usually a positive person but lately I’ve been trying so hard to stay positive but I can’t. I’m So tired of dealing with my parents and medical along with a job and school. I’m 15 so I don’t get to tell my parents to shut up or that they need to leave me alone. I’m exhausted and my mom recently quit her job so she is obsessed with trying to figure out all my medical issues but I need her to clean the house instead (it’s currently for sale) but she sits in bed all day and doesn’t do anything to help I’m behind in online school, I’m going to talk to my therapist about a service dog because my pain is getting worse and I can hardly walk to the bathroom without feeling as if I’m going to fall over (I often do fall) I get tested for pots in 2 weeks and my mom thinks there is a genetic link because my sister and i have the same issues at the same age (my sister does not have chronic pain). My friends sister has a service dog and her dog has alerted to heart rate spikes and scratching from a panic attack I had when I thought I saw my dad( My friends sister was in the hospital for surgery and couldn’t take her dog do to no one being able to care for it at the hospital) after talking to my friends sister and parents they think I should get a dog and even offered to loan me money for a dog. I’m so nervous and I just don’t want to ask because I feel like I’m just going to get shut down by my doctor because I feel like service dogs are meant for people with blood sugar issues and macs ect. Another issue I have been having is the fact I still can’t ride do to my doctor saying no, my legs are still weak and they feel really heavy like I have just run a mile along with my CRPS flaring off and on. My anxiety is really bad and I can’t handle sounds and textures I start crying and hyper ventilating and sometimes pass out. I’m just done I don’t want to do all this anymore I feel myself slipping into bad habits again and I’m struggling to stay above water but I don’t think I can anymore.