Laying here in what feels like day 100 of this flare. I was doing well with pushing myself but the wall finally fell on me. Had a chat with counlser and I'm working on some areas of forgiveness to help with some of the physical pain. Those of I who do mindfulness may know what I'm saying. In fact I dont really know what I'm saying . Honestly just laying here trying to find a way out. How-to leave my body and just take my mind to a happier place.
One of the hardest forgiveness to learn is the art of forgiving yourself. We are generally taught from a young age to care for ourselves and not to "be a burden" so that we forget to forgive ourselves when we feel like a burden. Remember, while you might FEEL like a burden, your loved ones most likely do not see you as one. They love you for you, not what you can or cannot do.
Actually I also deal with forgiving myself for my illness. I feel as if i I were not so consumed with my education and establishing a career. That I might not would have gotten sick.. of course logically I know I could not have foreseen this. And even if i had gone to the Dr. They may have still missed it. But I feel as if i need to blame someone so I must be it.
I'm angry when my career is going great, here comes this fibromyalgia. I hadn't even heard of it. I thought my immune system was low for a couple of months, but I still pushed through working early mornings and late nights. Then I woke up one day, I was in so much pain and couldn't move. That's when I found out I had fibromyalgia. I still thought that it wouldn't stop my ability to work. So I kept working until the pain worsened alone wih fatigue, and having major brain fog. I had to stop working because, I wasn't me anymore. Now Im just trying to accept my diagnosis. I'm use to being very independent. I hate that I NEED help now. I hope your flare ends soon.
Mochabarbee.. I understand. I was at the beginning of my dream career that took 15 yrs to reach. I litterally almost died to keep it. I worked til I calapsed at work. So I get it. And I'm still working on to get a handle on it. This new life I was giving is not one I would have ever picked. Do u have access to a counseling service or something. It caught the idea for a while but now I'm glad I did.
@newfibrogirl2. I understand 🤗🤗 I am also working on that part of my life . You can do it 💕💕 Don't give up on yourself. Forgiveness is so hard to do but . I forgive some stuff and people including myself on things and it does get easier in time
Sending prayers your way. Pm anytime you need to talk about anything 🤗🤗🤗🤗
Thank you..as I think about it I do feel I've not really forgiven my GODsister for what shr did. I don't want to be rude or hurt her feelings so I just choice to avoid her. But maybe I need to let it go.