As usual I had a restless nights sleep waking up every so often, tossing and turning, hot then cold etc....
When I eventually got up and washed and dressed my TN pain wasn't as bad 8/10 so I thought I'd be ok to go shopping....I have a lot of meat in the freezer plus some dried soya protein chunks and mince I got from the health food shop - the lady said they'd be good for me to include on a alkaline diet to reduce inflammation in my body and good my daughter so she gets the protein without the saturated fats. So I just needed some basic pantry stuff like tinned tomatoes and fresh fruit and veg.
As I was driving to the supermarket the TN pain started to get worse. my stress levels were the same before we left, when I go out they always go high but I had Jo with me so I knew I'd be able to do a quick shop. when we pulled up the car park was busy as normal for a Sunday. MY pain level seemed to even off for a bit 9/10. when Jo got the trolley and we started walking round to get bits the pain started to increase again and by the time we had got everything and was waiting at the checkout the pain was becoming unbearable, I was almost in tears, I'd taken my extra meds and had a lidocaine plaster on but nothing was working. If I didn't need to get the shopping I would have walked out and I very nearly did anyway but I had Jo and she needed some of the shopping for hypos so we waited. by the time we got thro and I was paying I was in tears the cashier was concerned and was asking if I was alright....as normal I played it down just saying the painkillers were starting to kick in.
I was in soooooo much pain I wasn't sure if I'd be able to drive home. The pain was soo intense all around my left ear, cheek and spreading up behind my eye. When we got to the car I took 2 paracetamol..... took them about half an hour early but I needed to be able to drive home. Jo was very worried about me and ssaid to recline my seat and sleep till the pain came down. I told her the paracetamol has started to help and drove home very carefully.
By the time we got home Jo said she needed a toilet but didn't make it....she'd soiled herself. She does that and gets stomach cramps when she's anxious, I've learnt not to make a big deal as it makes her worse.
We got home put the shopping away then I sent her up to finish her homework. I cooked a soup, I'd picked up some prepared veg so I chucked it in a pan with a tin of tomatoes, chopped red onion, crushed garlic and grated ginger then chucked in a load of herbs and spices, chicken stock and a quarter cup of quinoa. I cooked the life out of it all because I can't chew anything at all. Jo was going to have a small pizza but when she looked at the soup she didn't want the pizza anymore. I couldn't tell you which herbs or spices I'd put in but whatever ratio I put in Jo said I can make it again!!!!
The pain is still soo bad I just don't know what to do. There's no point going to A&E what more can they do for the pain that I haven't already tried. I can't take the pain it's soo bad but I'm trying to hide how bad it is from Jo because it will only make her anxiety worse and to be honest I can't cope with that as well.