Hi everyone! I'm new to this app. I am an 18 year old female with some kind of chronic pain. I have a reumatologist appointment this Wednesday and I don't really know what to expect when I go.
I've been in pain for many years but I always brushed it off, not thinking much of it. I recently started college and I am on my second semester. First semester was a brutal blow to my health. The last month of classes was filled with constant visits to the chiropractor. No amount of over the counter pain medication helped and I hardly got any sleep. During my week of finals I got roughly 13 hours of sleep. Then over my break I slept most days.
My ribs are always popping out of place and my body is inflamed. I'm getting use to tolerating the pain some days. My best day in months was on Friday. I only had some shoulder and arm pain. But over the past few months I've been getting worse.
The thing I hate most about all of this is I have one friend who is worried about me. Meanwhile my family tell me to shut up about my pain, call me lazy, grandma, baby, they tell me to loose weight, to move, and I'm sick of hearing it. I feel so depressed these days. I use to never allow myself to cry and now I'm crying alone at night. I've given up on doing homework. I can't focus on anything and I struggle to hold a pen now. I'm struggling to type this on my iPod. I apologize for any spelling mistakes. 🙈
I don't know what to do anymore: I'm considering dropping out this semester. I don't have a job. I'm scheduling an appointment to see a school counselor. I want to be healthy but I know that will never happen.