Hi all. Most of u already know my story and what I've been dealing with. However the most recent issue is my ability to have children. I'm having to make the choice to either live with or try to medicate the numerous tumors in my abdomen and uteru and now also near my bladder. Or to have a full hysterectomy and have all the tumors removed. I am currently in recovery from a surgery to remove what I though was 10 tumors but once they got in it was discovered I had a lot more then they thought and they were in very dangerous life threatening places.
So now I'm thinking about how I had so many y plans for my life career and family. I love children and was so excited about the time I would be able to have my own. But now I am forced to decide to close that door of children and live a life without my own children. My boyfriend has two kids and he has been so great not pressing and being supportive . he says that I've got two kids by helping him raise his daughters. And I love him for tthat. But its still something in me that is not satisfied with that.
I know on the surface its really no choice to make . remove the thing that could kill you and live your life. It I can't help but feel a loss with the idea of not being able to have children. I'm only 37 and feel I still have time. This is a hard spot to be in. Which way do you go? What do you do?/how do you choice?