So I'm up again. So that just leaves me more time to think. All that been happening with me and my family. I'm really looking for some sort of personal accomplishment. Most times my family has talks and they try to comfort me by telling me all the good me being home has been for them. And all thats great but u stil go back to how they only speaknon how they feel better. Nothing really good has happened just for me. Now yes iuve had family stepo up to help me with financial situations. And I'm so greatful for that. But I've left my boyfriend my home my job my environment I've set up the last 15 years of my life. I'm 35 and I don't feel I've done near enough with my life.
I've come home and became the caregiver for two elderly parents and a sounding board for my sister. U do the shopping the cooking the caring the planning. All the while I'm slowly slipping more and more in debt.
So my point for this babbling sob story is I at least want loss the weight I've gained since being sick and get back to my weight from before my lkssdt two surgeries. But it seems the !ore I try to loss weight and control my body the more I'm fought and the sicker I get. So should o just give up? The funny thing is even with the 40 lbs I've gained I'm really the only one who seems to have issue with it. Even my doctors r saying either nothjing bout my weight or if I ask them they just say " well unfortunately yes weight gain us gonna happen " so I'm like well what the heck?!! I suppose withnall this I just to have control of something. Nothing in my life right now is the way i want it. And I have no idea how to get it back. I've got at least one more msajor surgery coming up and all that comes with that.
..lol..I don't even know what my real question is here.. Sorry.. .........