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Job appraisal time 😭

Nov 24, 2016 12:39 PM

It's coming up to year end so it's appraisal time at work. This year they changed the format. It used to be the manager filled it out and told you how they think you are doing, now you fill it out with how you think you are doing then the manager discusses with supervisor and then the manager fills or how he thinks you are doing based on discussion with supervisor. Then you sit and discuss it and go over any differences and why they are there. And i have to come up with a real measurable goal for the next year so survive probably isn't acceptable.
I have no idea how to fill this out. It's all soft skills, not the actual technical work, that is being appraised. My soft skills are not great to begin with, I'd say passable, but depending on the environment around me and if something doesn't agree with my system everything can shut down and i can't do shit. I can't be around people, i can't communicate, i can't make decisions, i can't think. So how do i fill this firm out (they want the truth) without getting myself fired?
Oh and i really haven't slept since Saturday (I've gotten a few hours total) and i got my period so everything is working against me. I'm sitting here staring at the damn form thinking i suck at absolutely everything and should just give up.
I think I'm having a rough day.

Nov 24, 2016 1:07 PM

😚Just breathe angel... just breathe... 😚it will all be ok in the end πŸ€—

Nov 24, 2016 2:18 PM

Take a break for 5 and just breathe....you're over thinking it, yes by the sound of it you're having a bad day and being way way way too hard on yourself.
Your firm know your limitations and have a note from your doctor which means they're meant to be helping you and if they send you into an environment that they know will set off your sensitivities is their fault if you go into a meltdown so they can NOT penalise you for it.
Remember breathe and stop being so very hard on yourself
Sending you { { { BIG GENTLE HEALING LOVING HUGS } } } XX

Nov 24, 2016 2:38 PM

I'm putting how an average day post april poisoning is in the drop down doesn't meet, meets or exceeds section. Then I'm explaining pre april and post april differences and why certain things are not so good. Like communication and working with people because of the incident in april and how my brain shuts off when i come into contact with trace amounts of stuff.
Then in attitude i put that my attitude is poor because i feel that this extreme decline in my health could have been prevented if I'd been taken seriously when i said that smell coming into the building was going to be a major issue and something needed to be done about it 3 years ago.
Problem solving and decision making are going to look a lot like communication because i can't do that anymore either.
And fuck it, my goal is going to be survive.
Either I'll get fired or they'll have me admitted to the psyche ward.

Nov 24, 2016 6:59 PM

Neither one will happen!!! You'll do exactly what you are planning to do... Survive!! Take a step back and breathe, just breathe, calm your system and it will all work out in the end. {{{Hugs}}}πŸ’•πŸ˜Š

Nov 24, 2016 7:26 PM

It's submitted. I sent a copy to my supervisor too so that he is in the loop if the manager corners him. We'll see how it goes. Hopefully the meeting gets done soon so that i have some time to calm down before i go on vacation

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